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Peaceandlove Posts: 219
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I ate today and i'm feeling high amounts of guilt, i just want it out of me, i can't believe i was so weak. I hate myself right now and i'm beating myself up because of this. It's full on war in my head and i can't get it to shut up, i think i'm losing it. I haven't felt this bad in a while and i can't stop crying about it and i feel sick. I can't get my mind off of it and all i can think of is eating something else but that's just going to make everything worse, i don't know what to do. To make matters worse i have punishment workout waiting for me now because of this and i'm already really sore from the last one. At least i can burn it off but i don't want to but i know i have to, i feel bad enough already, not getting up is just going to add to the guilt because i'll probably gain weight and hate myself even more. It's not fair, i hate dealing with this and i hate that i have to keep up with this, i want out but i can't get myself to give this up. As much as i hate it, i love it and i can't see myself with out it, no matter how bad it makes me feel. So now i sit here up to my neck in guilt and i don't know what to do next. Together, today we'll get it done. At the end of the story the victory is won. No matter how simple this might sound, helping someone else is where love is found. Just reach out your hand to show you care. The greatest gift is the one you share.
Why kiss the feet of the people who kick you? When you can be anything that you want to.
All I know is, you've got to get mad. You've got to say, 'I'm a human being, goddamn it. My life has value.
You are a magnet, appreciation and happiness attracts more appreciation and happiness. Stay happy and you will attract more happy things
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