Dysfunctional Families Online Support Group

Hi my name is Jayepaws but you can call me Jaye JJ or JP whatever I will answer. my two brothers & I are adopted they are well adjusted but I feel like I'm not.. my birth mother was in the hospital for 3 days a week before I was born for hemorraging & I was born at 36 weeks....

later I found out that I had a stroke when I was being born & at two years old I was diagnosed with Cerebral Palsy a mild case my two eyes were crossed & I had two operations that I got fixed I have 20/20 vision & I had two operations on my leg to correct it it still hurts me. I have migraines asthma, mitral valve prolapse, borderline personality disorder, anxiety that goes with BPD.

I always felt lost & alone ever since I was little around 5 years old It's not do to my parents because i was small... my father had back trouble & I watched him fall several times & it bothered me he had a allergic reaction to a dye & he almost died he saw the light. when he came out of it he said that he had to much love to give & he would be gone around 76 years old & he did..

he died July 26th 2005 he helped me going places now I have to rely on my boyfriend Chris & it isn't right... everytime I wanted to do something I felt like I was discouraged I never went to school college that hurt me badly because I'm on disability & I can only work some many hours a week to keep my disability check.... I heard that I was only good as a dishwasher.... Every time I try to discuss my problems with mom it gets turn around to my sister's problems.

I feel like I am about to explode.. my sister has a drinking problem she stops then when things are stressful she starts to drink again.

well one time my boyfriend Chris my niece Michele my sisters daughter & I went to Walt Disney World well I found out she took off on my mom & left her alone.... my mom has Parkinson Disease & has life alert but she could have fallen & not been able to get up so I was saying that she shouldn't have done that... I get yelled at or saying that I shouldn't do that because she is taking care of mom.... they think I'm Jealous of my sister it's not that everybody comes together for her & when I try to explain my problems it gets turned around or I get nobody can help because it's too far to go & pick you up...

I mean when she was married to her second husband I couldn't even ask her to go out because her husband would only let her have an hour with me.... so mom said I couldn't ask her... he was working at Pratt & Whitney & they moved to CA. for a while... I don't have any problems with my brothers it's my sister I've gotten well I have better things to do at high school learning to drive.... then I forgot my inhaler to go to a game & she just dropped me off & went with my parents & her second husband & I felt like I was diseased & she didn't want to wait...

I always wanted a relationship with her & I can't I can't even talk to her secretly about intimate things I should talk to mom instead.. well that's it for now have a great night Jaye

Post edited by: JAYEPAWS, at: 10/19/2011 08:04 PM

Post edited by: JAYEPAWS, at: 10/19/2011 08:34 PM

Hi JJ..Welcome to the group!! Do you still live at home with your siblings?

You know with a disability, we normally feel we are different from our siblings. Its just a thought in your mind, feeling different, but your not!

No one is better than you are! And I mean that, I'm a Mom of a son with disabilities. You are loved no less than the other siblings in your home.

May I ask your age? Because , if you are old enough there are a lot of great places to live to have your own independence....I'm so glad you are here..

Welcome hugs...Patty

Post edited by: patty777, at: 10/19/2011 07:54 PM

I live in a mobile home in Florida I will be 43 in December there are no disability places here. only 55 & over... I'm glad I'm by myself... I have two cats... with my BPD my boyfriend Chris wants me to get better before we move in together... I have a anger issue that I'm trying to control I've been getting better. but it's just trying to get my feeling across we all live in different areas of Florida except for my oldest brother Ron he is in NC thank you for the welcome Jaye

I have been out of work since Dec 28th of 2010 & today OCT 19th I found a job at Home Depot a hardware store as a cashier I'm so happy yea!!!!!!!!

Post edited by: JAYEPAWS, at: 10/19/2011 09:14 PM

Welcome to the group! I hope you find help and comfort here..

Good luck with the job! thats good news... HUGS

Hi Jaye, nice to meet you and welcome to our group. Relationships with siblings can be complicated, handle with Love. Adoption is the loving option and I have seen that so many women will pick abortion before giving life. As a Peer Counselor I have recommended it time and again, being rewarding for all concerned. I was in a foster home for 2 years, It was the best thing for me. I'm not working currently, illneses made me have to stop, Congratulations on the new Job. Don't pressure your self, you will pick up the daily works of it in time. I usually had to take notes when first starting. Have a good day, see you on line, Blessings CLAP

right adoption is the best thing if the parents can't take care of the child it's just that I feel like a part of me is missing something you know... but I am strong I think I am.... yeah it is hard with siblings but to me I'm not being heard right now just concerns for my sister & mom

my sister never calls me just to talk about what is bothering her... I always have mom answer because usually want to talk to her but sometimes is feel disconnected with my sister I have so much love that it's too bad that we can't just go & do something together. yeah I will probably have to write things down too. my sinuses are hurting. I hope all is well...

with my anxiety my emotions get overwhelming & I don't know how to let them go... I feel much better the right medication I'm like I was in high school don't show much emotion but I do... I don't cry off the handle like I did a few months ago... have a great week hope all is well... I don't like illness because you can never do what you want to do.... that's me for you. Jaye

Hi Jaye, it's so nice to see you. I've missed you! Congratulations on getting the job!

Post edited by: Angela2, at: 10/25/2011 02:27 AM

Hi Jaye, Welcome to the group! Congratulations on getting the job! Hugs, Donna

thanks to both of yo I've missed you to Angela it seems only April writes to me in the other forum peaches takes care of the rest with April but oh well. Jaye

J Thats Great!! You have a new job! Wow and a mobile home in Florida?? That sounds like a dream for me!! I hate this Northern climate..you freeze..and feel down..its horrid on top of family problems as well...I'm proud of you..you really are doing fantastic!!

Hugs with Care, Patty