Dual Diagnosis Support Group

It seems like evryday gets a little bit harder and I don't know why. I just want to stop being sad all the time. Wanting to cry every minute of everyday is not a way to live. Also, why can't the people you love understand your pain? I hate trying to explain myself all the time. Some days I think that this big hole I dug myself into is getting deeper and deeper. Luckily, I have not used throughout this time. I am still clean but my depression is worsening. Yeah, of course I think about it but then I say to myself "do I really want to lose four years of being clean from coke to feel numb for a minute or an hour." I need help. Is anyone out there?

Hi, Jordan, I'm sorry I haven't been here until now. The depression is a tough thing to live with, I know I've been there. If you're anything like me, you can't beat it by yourself. I had to have help in the form of a psychitrist, meds and a therapist. I hit a rock bottom where I just could not get out of bed and do anything and I knew I was going to die if I did not get help and I asked a friend to help me get help and she did, thank goodness. I now take my meds every day and go to AA and see a therapist and haven't been in that deep, dark depression for about 6 years. For me it's almost like a time of celebration like we have of being sober, I want to celebrate coming out of that last depression. It's hard work for me to stay out of it, I could easily sink right back into it.

Is there anyone you could ask for help? Are you on meds? I know how hard it is to get meds sometimes, the obsticles that stand in our way. But they're so important. Like you said, if we are depressed we think of self-medicating and that's no good. I hope you can find your way out of this depression. If you need to talk more personally, just PM me, I'll check my email every day. Hang in there.