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OSun Posts: 426
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This is a hard situation for you. This is a challenging situation in general. It sounds to me that you recognize that you have a problem and mentioning it here is a cry for help. The only thing you can do is put one foot in front of the other and try to find support ASAP. I know that you have no insurance; I had to deal with that for a long time. But, I think you should check yourself into a hospital where you can detox and stay for a little while to distance yourself from your living situation and your mother. You should tell these people your situation and everything you just said here (once you get admitted that is). For them to admit you, you will probably have to say you are suicidal. I've done it more than once when I needed to check myself in. There are social workers there etc that should be doing their jobs to help you out. I have hospital bills up the a!s because of no insurance and have to pay them back someday, but I needed to stay at the time and having no insurance was no excuse. After you've taken this step there are many support groups you can belong to. I would rather keep it simple for you at first and recommend a hospital. Please take care of yourself-your living situation is a danger to you and you can't save anybody else. Come back here as often as you'd like. I am here to listen. xoxo I know all about pain pills, I was addicted to them for a long time. I was also an IV heroin abuser. I am clean now because I realized I need help from others. -Stacy
I said to my soul, be still, and wait without hope
For hope would be hope for the wrong thing; there is yet faith
But the faith and the love and the hope are all in the waiting.
Wait without thought, for you are not yet ready for thought:
So the darkness shall be the light, and the stillness the dancing.
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