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My hubby has been using pain pills for more than 6 years, but the amount had dramatically increased over the past 2 years to the point that they are causing him to have seizures and miss a lot of work (all summer). He went to a rehab center July 5th and came home a week later staying clean for only a few weeks. He has since gone right back to using the same amount and having seizures again. I worry that he's going to end up killing himself or someone else if something happened on his hour long drive to work now that he just returned. I tried being loving and supportive and even holding onto the pills so that he didn't OD, but that never worked because he'd just keep badgering me for more, making things too stressful. My daughter who's 6 knows what's going on, that pills=seizures and she worries that he'll get into an accident... not something a 6 yr old should deal with!!!!!! Luckily my little one is 3 and doesn't quite understand things yet. I'm at my last straw. I told my hubby that I can't live like this anymore. Even though he's always been a good husband, friend, and father, and I made a vow that i'd be with him for better or for worse, the stress of his addiction is NOT healthy for this family and he needed to choose the family or the pills. He has chosen the pills. He just ordered more after he swore on his love for me and the kids that he wouldn't take any more and that he'd go back into the program. DO I LEAVE??? I can't just pack up ALL my and the kids stuff when they just started school and I have no place in town to go, but he won't leave or get help... I don't WANT to leave him, but I can't let the kids be around this anymore. If I don't do anything, he'll keep at it won't he? But what if he spirals downward? I'm afraid he's a bit suicidal and this could make it worse... |
