Domestic Violence Online Support Group

Okay as most of you know I was beat so many times over the period of 13 yrs by my ex husband everytime I left he found me and the beatings got worse. I was even in a few abuse home for women and was kicked out because he was there causing so much trouble that the other woman got scared so I was asked to leave. When I left boy was I beat again and dragged back home when I finally couldnt take no more and didnt care if I lived or died I told him i was done this is it i want out. He said find and i woke up to him standing over me with a medal pipe full of cement. I am now disabled and normally i can deal with it but today im in so much pain that I am finding myself so mad at him all over again. I just feel like hes walking around with no care in the world and im hurting everyday all day its not fair but now writing this post I just have to say. " Yeah I am disabled but IM FREE."

Hugs Mary

Mary,I was left permanently disabled by my own ex abuser.I understand well the feelings of pain,frustration,anger and unfairness.It IS terribly unfair that he did this terrible thing and walked away.Sometimes it helps alittle to just acknowlege that unfairness.I believe that abusers get their own bad karma back in the end.

Personally I left my abuser wounded but NOT broken and there IS a difference.He did not break my spirit.My spirit will soar no matter what.There will be good days and bad days.I am thankful for every good day and I just try to get through the bad days as best I can.I was a victim of abuse.But I refuse to STAY his victim.I am a survivor and his abuse taught me that I am strong enough to survive anything.I will not allow hatred and anger to consume me.I will feel it and then let it go.I will glean every bit of happiness I can from each and every day.His evil abuse will not consume my life.

Remember there are good days ahead for you.No matter how dark things seem.Take time to take care of yourself.You are strong and you deserve good things.

HUGS.Lanna

Lanna thank you so much. Ya he didnt steal my spirit I am a SURVIVOR. Usually I keep my head up and know im stronger then he will ever be. If I can go through this and be able to help someone else out then I am proud. Yes im in a chair but im alive and thats all that matters.

Hugs mary

Lanna and Mary: I thank God for both of your stories and your soaring spirits and awesome continued support. I know how much you much hurt, but you both look beyond all of that and help others who are trying to get out of their abusive relationships and people like me, who needs your support to help me stay focused and show my daughter that I love her and her children no matter what and that I will be here for them always and they can always count on me for help not judgment. Love, peace and courage, Abbey

Thank you Abbeyp you have always been such a sweet person you are such a great mom and you are showing other moms how to love and support your child no matter what you inspire me.

Hugs Mary