Depression Support Group

Lovely bones

This movie was scary, but beautiful in its own way. I loved all the scenes of heaven. Or what the young girl felt was her heaven was until she finished her business on Earth.

It made you feel like dying and leaving here is not so bad, When God calls us Home it will be a joyous time of love. Time for no more worries. Never to be abused physically and emotionally ever again. I endured this kind of abuse since I was 3 years old. But back in the sixties and seventies it was hidden. Did you ever have a guy on a date put a gun to your head because you wouldnt do what he wanted you to do? I have. My Dad believed me for once , just because he didnt like this guy and took care of things.

So many times I have come close to being called Home, I have severe PTSD since I was in my teens from child hood and it never stopped. The physical abuse 7 years into my marriage, losing my sister before my eyes and my brother to an OD on heroin. My mom an alcoholic that I had to drag home from the local bar when I was only from the ages 3-9 where the men did what they felt with me. I married to get out of my life at home. You ever been a black and blue Bride? No, I doubt it. Been in therapy , on meds for years and Im such a bad person I was even drove away from here, the depression group I started with in 10-08. Know viv since she came on . Anyone remember Camey? or A-Piece-of -Art, what a wonderful scared person she was too. I miss her., I miss the Viv I use to know. I miss everyone who were kind and gentle for people like me in a severe depression, who knew just what to say to help you feel a little more human. But so many, I have been told are glad Im gone. And thats ok. I am too.

God's Blessings

Patty PS MOVIES DO TRIGGER PTSD AND DEPRESSION

Patty I am still the same Viv you used know. Maybe a little sicker but what else has changed about me? I still love with my whole heart. Spend hours praying for everyone and answer all the post I am up too.

I still very much care about you and pray that the depression will lift. Of course you have been through so much it is hard on you. I can relate and won't go into all I have lived through. I will just say Yes I have been this black and blue person before and I am truely sorry you think I dont care anymore. I have never quit caring about you and pray for you daily. Love ya and Blessings Viv.

Im sorry I was just hurt when you didn't acknowledge my MISS YOU pics , I even wrote to you to ask you why you thought I wanted to argue with you on that post. That was when I PM 'd Roy to make my decision to step down. I thought if I lost your respect, no sense in being a GL. Because you always meant so much to me. When you sick in the hospital I kneeled before God and cried my heart out for you to not be in pain and to take care of you with loving arms to protect you from discomfort.

You were my inspiration from the very beginning, and your words hurt about that post and the way you answered all other posts but mine. The only one you did hurt me bad enough to step down doing something I loved.

I did feel to give you the benifit of the doubt , due to the pain your in and meds to fog our brains to ease the pain. So maybe thats what happened, I dont know. But I love you and everytime I got a report of such sad things like the infection and nose bleeds, they made me feel God was calling you to him. ure if those negative reports were a good idea. Raoul and Shyanne and many others got very upset with them. We all wanted to know how you were doing, but a simple report like Bits and I tried did help for awhile.

oh just so much Sadness, I dont want anything to happen to you and Im sorry for even bringing up the one post you spoke to me in. Just let it go and please forgive me, Shyanne wont, I tried. Will you forgive me? I almost had a chance to meet you, have the tickets, but cancelled from what happened. Still have the tickets, they dont refund. But I fly often, so they will be used.

I love you and Please by the Grace of God's Mercy forgive me. Bless you Always, Patty

I'm glad you two are communicating and working things out, but shouldn't this be done in a pm?

That was Viv's call, she asked and I answered. Are you the Depression police now Erin or are you hoping to become a GL of depression. Good wishes my friend.

God Bless you with a kind and loving heart, you will know that someday after you get off your anger issues. Nothing bad was said in that post only a true apology of love and caring for some one I have none a lot longer than you

Patty

Yes Patty your right it was my call. I wanted you to know I never meant to cause you any hurt at all. There is nothing to forgive you for you didn't do me wrong Patty I have always considered you a friend and still do. It saddens me that you stepped down because of me I never wanted you to do that. I know you really care about me and that you pray for me as well as I do you. Me and you have gone back a long ways and many nights we have chatted in pms and prayed for one another. I do have alot more health problems and if I seemed to not care that way never the case. I am terribly sorry. I did look at all the pictures you put up for me and I sent you a pm telling you they were beautiful and meant alot. I didnt put it on that board because it had gone to the forums. I never left you out intentionally my dear. Please know I still care and Love you as much as I always did that will never change and I am still here for you anytime. I do accept your apology and I apologize for hurting you. Love ya. Viv

I thank you Viv, I always will have a special place in my heart for you. You helped me through some very emotional nights. As well as I tried to help you with painful nights. Never will forget you my sister in Christ Our Lord. Love and caring always, I trust in God that he will see us through our tribulations as always before. Blessings, Patty

Post edited by: patty777, at: 07/30/2010 07:56 PM

Well, the movie I wanted to bring up was one that really touched my heart. It was called "The Road" about a father and his young son who try to survive after a devestating apocolypytic event to the earth. Some parts were a little gruesome and had to turn my eyes but the story itself is really touching. It had so many elements: drama, humor, sadness and love that only a father and son could have.

Patty, you sound severely depressed and should possibly think of going inpatient. I am tired of you bringing up my name in a negative light also and you attacking people on here. Every time you come on here, everyone has to dropped and run to Patty because she demands attention. To heck with anyone else who may need help. I might as well be talking to the air when i post anything. HAVE YOU ASKED FOR FORGIVENESS, PATTY? No, you have not. YOU TOLD ME I WAS EVIL, HAD HATE IN MY HEART, TO STAY AWAY FROM YOU AND GO BACK TO HIGH SCHOOL WHERE I BELONG. You can be very mean when you want to be, Patty. A few nice words does not undo the hurt that you cause, nor does some pretty picture. Put that in your pipe and smoke it. All of us have depression or we wouldn't be here, remember!?! So what if that young lady would like to be Group Leader. That is NONE of your business. Until you become a bit more level, maybe you should just stay off here, do you think?

The movie would be Sweet Home Alabama. I know it was one of the older ones but it was so good. Such a great love story and even though in some parts if felt sad it ended beautifully. Each time I watch it I think if only there was that true love out there that I always wanted. From when I was little I wanted to marry have a family and be in loved. I always pictured stuff to be romantic. This was that as well as some funny parts all mixed in.