Depression Support Group

Hi All.

Like so many of you out there, I battle with depression due to circumstances beyond my control. Lord knows, I never intended to live my life this way.

My depression started in college when I endured some verbal abuse from a roomate who basically made my life as miserable as possible. I began medication about 3 months after I graduated because I needed to move on. It was wonderful! I could see an amazing difference in how I felt. Now I still have my up and down days, but it's certainly not like those miserable days of college.

Moving on-- I am a single mom of an emotionally disturbed child with bipolar, ADHD, and RAD. I've raised her since 2006 because her parents could not afford to keep her anymore.

Back in 2007, I turned in my resignation at my workplace due to unethical things going on. I loved the people I worked with, but I hated seeing things go on that shouldn't have happened. I don't really regret leaving. Unfortunately the economy took a nosedive and I have been unable to find a job since then. My struggles to find employment have impacted my depression.

Furthermore, my depression is also impacted by my child's special needs. I find myself wanting to scream, cry, etc because I'm so frustrated and tired of caring for a bipolar child. I know that sounds so selfish. I love her, but I hate all three of her disorders. I hope that makes sense.

More than anything else, I want to go back to school. But my fears of failure tend to get in the way. And I have failed major exams before and it sent me spiraling downward and I'd be depressed for awhile after that. It's hard knowing what you want...and trying not to let it get you down.

Will look forward to getting to know some of you out there.

Hello MissouriMom..It is great to have you here with us in the depression group..it is understandable how it started in college goodness nothing worse than being treated miserable by those your around..I wouldnt like that one little bit either..It upsets me greatly to be treated badly by anyone.

With your child having those disorders I know it must be hard on you..Bi-polar alone is enough then you add the others it is a handful I am sure I understand what you mean..

With todays economy it is so hard to make it and get by..I know I am disabled and every penny has to account for something here..I get so frustrated at times trying to make ends meet but somehow I always pull it through..

Are you taking any medicines to help you with the depression? I know I have to to keep myself leveled out and going..I pray that you meet many good people here and make wonderful friends as I have...Blessings be with you welcome..!!!

Yes I am on an off-brand of Welbutrin. It's called "Buproprion".

Hi and welcome.I am new here too, and just want to say hello...I think you are very kind and courageous and loving to be raising a child with so many disorders; we need more people like you in the world.However,it is only natural that the day to day frustrations and pain of raising your child are affecting your own depression profoundly...I can tell you love your child and it must tear you apart to see that child suffer so much...when there is only so much that you or anyone else can do to further help them.It is not just okay to hate the diseases of someone you love; it is entirely normal.

Okay, sorry for the sermon length response! I hope you find the help and support you are looking for here.I have a feeling you will. Best, best wishes to you!

Welcome MissouriMom. Parenthood is very stressful for everyone, when you add a special needs child it just compounds the issue. Good luck

Welcome. MY name is Stacey. It is very stressful to be a parent to any chid and with the stress of this economy it can send anyone into a tail spin. I can kind of relate a tiny bit. I have a son diagnosed with autism this past April he is 2 and a half. It frustrates me on a daily basis we have many screaming tantrums a day over such seemingly small things.I only wish he had more language skills to help me understand what he needs.I am also starting on the path to go back to school after being a stay at home mom for 7 yrs. It scares me to death! I was in school before I got my initial diagnosis of the depression and school was extreamly stressful and difficult to get through. I am hoping I will do better with these meds in my system and I will be able to concentrate on more than my own dramas!

Anyway... welcome I hope things get better for you. I am here if you need to vent!