Depression Support Group

I live in a house where emotions are completely downplayed, so everyday I have to fake a smile and if I do get depressed I have to hide it and I especially can't cry. That seems to set off my parents and I can't help but cry somedays. I lock myself in my room and cry for hours and the only person I cry in front of is my fiance and by proxy his roommate. I won't even shed a tear in therapy. I wanna cry so bad, especially today. I wanna tell my parents that i woke up today and wanted to die but they wouldn't understand, I don't even understand why. I just am like that some mornings. I wanna be able to express my feelings to them without being yelled at for being "oversensitive about nothing". Its nice to be able to talk about this stuff with people who're not my fiance or paid to listen to me complain.

Hello CrazySquirrel,

Welcome to our group we are glad to have you here and all you have to be is yourself hun..You can cry, vent talk and we will listen and be here for you..That is what we are here for..I am glad you have found us but so sorry you feel so badly..Depression is a hard thing and sometimes people who dont have it dont get it..It is easy to say get over it but not that simple to do if it was we would have all thought of that by now. I am one who never shed tears in thearpy but they would come when it was over and I was home. Do not feel alone dear we are right here with you..Feel free to write and post all you need.

I understand Crazysquirrel! Some mornings I wake up and before I lift my head from the pillow I start to cry. Haven't done that in awhile...I was on a good combination of meds. But I'm now realizing that I was in an extended state of hypomania and I feel that the tables are turning on me. I'm scared of it. I'm scared to go back to the depression. The best thing I can tell you is to cry. If you have to do it in private, do it in private. Crying helps to get your emotions out that you've been bottling up. I wish your family would be more supportive. But that is the thing I hear most from everyone here....lack of family support and understanding! Well, sweetie, we understand here and whether you can feel it or not, we're holding your hand.

Hugs,

Camey

I am sorry you are having a tough time with depression. I can very much relate to how your feeling. I cant cry at all sometimes because when i try to want to let my emotions out I cant because I am on medication. please hold in there and keep staying alive for you. There is so much to live for in your life that even though its hard to have depression please just keep on fighting it and i know its hard to fight but dont give up. Take this from me who was a person who so long ago tried and had to have my stomach pumped that i decied after that no more i must fight to live life because i have so much to live for and to have my stomach pumped that was what did it was that i decied no more of that and even though i have had past depression i have always told my half sister to tell her mom dont give up because you have to keep fighting because we are all here for a reason. No matter what kind of mental illn ess we suffer from even though we never asked for it we still are here for a reason in god eyes. my x step mom suffers from bipolar and she has tooken her life so many times that it makes me want to cry because i feel so much for her depression. hang in there please and we are here if you need to talk.