Hi, I live with my boyfriend of just over a year, when we got together he told me he suffered from depression for a while previously but had no sign of it for about 5 years. So the relationship was great until recently, just after christmas he had an anxiety attack in the middle of the night and then got depressed, he dealt with it pretty well and told me straight away he needed to see a doctor! The doctor put him on anti depressants and since then he has not had any anxiety attacks and has seemed happier in himself! However.. He shows very little if any affection towards me anymore, we kiss when he leaves for work and if i ask for a kiss i get one.. But it isnt passionate! We do have the occasional cuddle but that is it and i dont even know the last time we were intimate. he tells me he loves me everyday and i belive that he does, he just doesnt show it. I have mentioned the intimacy thing to him and he just says that he doesnt feel up to it and that the tablets have made him lose his sex drive completely.. Which i have read is a common side effect so i understand. A few weeks back i went away for a few days and when i returned i was tidying the bedroom and found a sticky sock (sorry to be gross) and it upset me to know that he could masterbate but couldnt touch me! Since then i can stop thinking that he doesnt love me, why doesnt he want to touch me, he doesnt find me sexy, will he find someone he is more attracted too ect. I love him more than anything and would really like to try and understand better. I dont want to lose him but at the moment i am struggling to deal with the depression.. Any advice or experience would be greatly appreciated! X 
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