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lifeisapain Posts: 6
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new to group, need to see if anyone feels this way: It all sucks, life in general. I hate the commercialism,the shallowness of existance.Everything revolves around money. You work to pay your bills to pay your bills you work. We r all hamsters on a wheel, running in circles. Tried God, meds, drugs, work, college degrees, love , sex, counseling. NONE OF IT WORKED. IT all sucks. What happens to us when we r young sticks with us and you can't change the impact is has on your life. If you didn't get love and re-assurance when you were a child, your whole life is screwed. You cant out run it, re learn it , control your thoughts to re-program your self. You are just plain old fucked. Every day is a pain in my ass. The only time I am happy is when I am sleeping. I hate waking up in the morning. It's like " ahh shit, another day of doing a bunch of crap I don't want to do" What is the point of any of this? I work with assholes, will never save enough to ever retire, have physical aches and pains that never go away. My girlfriend does not "get it" when it comes to depression. I get "just be happy" from her and I want to puke. Our country is going broke ( usa). Sometimes I think life is a cruel joke, meant to antagonize people. I can't remember the last time I had a good time doing anything or felt joy or happiness. It would be nice to connect with someone that "gets it". what is the point? And please don't tell me god or jesus loves me, been there done that........ DID NOT WORK. does anyone feel like this? Can u really understand where I am comming form? |
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patty777
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Depending on your age, yes I can relate if I was 20 again. Im sorry your going through this pain. Your working and that tells me, you have something to hold on to. Working is sometimes helpful in itself. I was there, not now, as severe at times. But its just as bad sometimes. My son grew up with love, and he suffers from severe depression since 7 years old. Tell me how a 7 year old can be depressed? Makes no sense, but thats depression. Im sorry your living it and hope you can relate to us here, we all are there or have been and trying to help ourselves. Always caring Patty |
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Peace4Rach Posts: 8879
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Hi Lifeispain. I do understand how there are things in life and around us that, what I think you're saying brings you down. I know things around can do that too. But I also realize, as I have some years on you that I can't control those people and things around me but rather myself and my life. That's the hard part because it takes all the strength and courage to get up in the morning, knowing the routine and finding a way through each day. And just every once in awhile, a few times a week finding something to smile and laugh about. That's what makes it easier and well, worth living. There are times and will always be times and days that just suck and people too. People who are unkind but it's the people and the things that are kind that matter in life. Hoping you find some understanding, support and comfort here. Happiness is not something we can find from things but what we find inside of us and it takes some of us time to find it. Those of us with depression, know all about how hard it is to find when the chemicals in our brain are depleted. It requires alot strength from us. This is a good caring group. Welcome hugs to you, Rachele Post edited by: Peace4Rach, at: 12/20/2009 05:20 PM Having the courage to walk step by step each day.
May the road rise up to meet you
May the wind always be on your back.
May the sun lie warm upon your face.
And until we meet again,
May the Lord hold you
In the hollow of His hand.
Im loving memory of my mom, 2007: My hero, The Wind Beneath My Wings
Peace4Rach-Bereavement and Depression Group Leader
PS: I am one of you and hurt too. Not a medical doctor, so be sure to check with a professional for medical or expert advice. |
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Sylvia4648 Posts: 5136
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Hi Lifeisapain and welcome to our depression site. I can relate to much of what you say, but as the others have said, mostly from when I was younger. I've suffered from depression off and on since I was 3. I have no words of wisdom for you; but depending on when you tried the meds, there are constantly new ones, and what works for one person may not work for another, or vice versa. So if it's been awhile you might want to talk to your doctor about trying one of the newer ones. I am sorry that you are so miserable and hope that you will get some of the support I've gotten here. Warm welcoming wishes, Sylvia 'I didn't have time to write a short [post].' Mark Twain wrote that one for me. LOL
'Wisdom is knowing when you can't be wise.'
'Life is what's happening while we are busy making other plans.'
NOTE: I can't imagine anyone is surprised that distracted driving has overtaken drunk driving as the number one cause of death on the road. Please, y'all, keep your eyes sharp when you drive. The guy in the next car could be on a computer in the dash board (whoever dreamed that up should have to watch autopsies), while the one behind you is texting. It's important to be aware of those around you. The kid who ended my second to last life was in a huge SUV and on the telephone.
I am not a medical practitioner. I speak only from personal experience. Please do not interpret anything I say as medical advice. |
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mitzigirl Posts: 11517
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Hello Lifeisapain welcome to our Depression group. My name is Viv and it is nice to meet you. Sounds like your having a tough time of it. Its hard for people around you that doesn't have depression to under it and really how much it entirely effects every aspect of our life. I have been told so many times to pick myself up and dust myself off well that still did not fix the depression. Your not alone we are all here and understand how you feel. Feel free to talk and post with us. Hugs and Blessings,
Viv
Live everyday as if it might be your last.
Let go and Let God!!!
Be Kind and Compassionate to others.
Understand life can be hard but you can survive it!
Good Friends make all the difference in the World.
Even though I am a leader of depression, OCD and MRSA I am just like the rest of you..I have the problems. I have no medical training. |
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lifeisapain Posts: 6
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thanks you for your reply........im 50 yrs old., remember being depressed when i was 5....... it NEVER ends.... |
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lifeisapain Posts: 6
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thanks you for your reply........im 50 yrs old., remember being depressed when i was 5....... it NEVER ends....yes have tried med... I do try to find things to be happy about. gratefull.....buts it's short lived.. |
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mitzigirl Posts: 11517
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Your so welcome I remember being depressed as a small child myself and I will be 49 soon so I know the feeling. I am grateful the meds do help me some of course they don't many and it sounds like they don't you that has got to be hard. We are here to talk to hope that at least helps knowing you are not the only one who feels like this. Hugs and Blessings,
Viv
Live everyday as if it might be your last.
Let go and Let God!!!
Be Kind and Compassionate to others.
Understand life can be hard but you can survive it!
Good Friends make all the difference in the World.
Even though I am a leader of depression, OCD and MRSA I am just like the rest of you..I have the problems. I have no medical training. |
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Peace4Rach Posts: 8879
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Hi Lifeisapain. I'm sorry I misinterpreted your age. I apoligize for that. Also sorry to learn you remember being depressed since childhood. It's not unheard of and yet depression is so very hard to cope with each and every day. I hear you about it being shortlived. It is the same for me. Whatever I do that is a happy time is shortlived. For most of the day is the feeling of sadness and depression. I guess I just try so hard to take that shortlived moment or moments to help me through each day. Every day is a challenge to wake up knowing the routine and it's not fun. May you know you are not alone here. Big hugs to you. Rachele Post edited by: Peace4Rach, at: 12/20/2009 06:49 PM Having the courage to walk step by step each day.
May the road rise up to meet you
May the wind always be on your back.
May the sun lie warm upon your face.
And until we meet again,
May the Lord hold you
In the hollow of His hand.
Im loving memory of my mom, 2007: My hero, The Wind Beneath My Wings
Peace4Rach-Bereavement and Depression Group Leader
PS: I am one of you and hurt too. Not a medical doctor, so be sure to check with a professional for medical or expert advice. |
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patty777
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Hi Im 50 years old and depressed all my childhood as well, Im sorry. We are here for anyone no matter your age. Your first step in talking is good, Im not saying there is a cure, but I do feel its genetics as well as an imbalance in the brain we cant control, sadly. I hope you know it can get easier, it sucks for me right now also and hoping for something new everyday to enlighten me. I need that, I want that and depend on it to all change. Dont know if it will. Patty |
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