Depression Support Group

i go through good and bad spells like everyone i guess but the little things always get to me. something will happen to set me off and all i will want to do is punch a wall and hurt myself. not a very girlie way to deal with a problem but it is all i can seem to do. i want to feel the pain and see the blood because it stops me from thinking about what is bothering me in the first place but all i am left with is a swollen hand and the same issue..... i used to cut myself a little but stopped because i just didn't want people to know how fucked up i am. i used to drink but stopped because it just made everything that much worse. i don't know how to change the way i feel or even how to control my anger sometimes. any suggestions?

hey

you are going to break your wrist - and that is going to really hurt.

why don't you overeat - or some such less destructive thng to help you over the bumps. OR you could sit down and write out a list of what is bothering you and try every day to address just one issue. That works for me - especially when I get overwhelmed by a lot of problems.

I am reeling form a xanax - have to get off now.

Raoul

Hey beamz,

For me controling my anger came with getting on the right medication to help me with my depression..

When I am really depressed I am easy to get mad and angry too..I have been known to punch a cabinet or two in my time..but now I know I am not accomplishing anything at all and like you end up with a sore hand..

It helps me to talk about it an get it out of my system..I really enjoy coming on MDJ an talking things out with others who I know has similar problems and aren't going to think well she is just messed up..

I dont feel that way about you at all..Sometimes it is the small things that trigger things for one reason or another..Please feel free to pm me anytime if you need to talk and also feel free to talk on the boards to where others can give you their opinon too..Bless you Beamz!

thanks. i can try that but my biggest problem is that all of the things that are bothering me are things that are stuck in my head as if they are never gonna change and i don't know how to turn that around. a lot of the time i get really mad and there is no excuse for it. like i don't even know why it bothers me.... i just feel lost. like i don't know who i am and i can't even control my emotions. it scares me sometimes.

Post edited by: beamz, at: 06/27/2009 10:40 PM

Causing your body injury will not solve any problems. It may take your mind from the problem for a short time, but the problem will remain. You need to think about the problem to solve it because avoidance only worsens the issue. Try to calm yourself down. Drink a glass of water, then try to meditate. Just sit down, close your eyes, and take deep and slow breaths. Focus on your breathing; listen to yourself breathe. Once you feel calm again, try to think about your problem (and remain calm while doing so!). What would be the best way to solve it? What actions could you take that would end with the best possible results for all parties involved? How will this action effect your future and relationships? Do not be rash.

We are a thin film of life on this dot, Earth, in an impossibly vast universe. You may think some problem you have is very important, but think about the universe... Will the universe be changed if something in your life goes wrong? It is doubtful. What I am getting at here- and I admit this will sound blunt and rude- is that neither you nor any other person on Earth is as important as they think they are. Therefore, any problem you encounter is surely not worth harming yourself over, because from a greater perspective, it isn't really a problem at all.

Do not drink alcohol to escape your anger. Stopping was a very good decision and you will surely benefit from it. And you are not fucked up at all. Everyone is different and everyone has different weaknesses. That is nothing to be ashamed of. I feel that it would be in your best interest to meditate for twenty minutes twice a day in a quite, peaceful environment. It will help you in many ways. If you ever want to talk, PM me.

Best wishes,

DI

thanks viv. this is the first time i have ever really tried to talk about my problems to anyone. i don't know if it is helping yet.....

Post edited by: beamz, at: 06/27/2009 10:41 PM

thanks di. i appreciate the honesty.

Beamz.,

It takes more than just once or twice it takes time but in time it does seem to help..I understand that thinks can get stuck in your head and it is hard to get past them..I have alot in my past and I have had to learn over the years..Beamz that my past is past and this is the present and I am going to live in it and try my best to put the rest behind me..I cant go back and undo them anyhow..

I know the feeling of being lost at times..But you not alone there is always people like me here who really do care about you and how you feel..Your welcome and I hope you can conintue to talk about how you feel..Blessings to you beamz.