Depression Support Group

I have had depression for many years. Seems as I get older , it gets worse at times. I think its from not really crying anymore, like I was able to do when younger. I wonder if tears dry up as we get older? Is that possible, I need to use artificial tears to lubricate my eyes now, but then I worry if that could be from my life long diabetes. Not sure, but when I get ins. again someday I will get to the eye dr. to have a check up...need knew glasses anyway.

Yes, I think its harder to make friends when I'm depressed because sometimes I just don't want to talk.

But I feel good here...but I thought I had like 140 friends on my friends here, but now it says 70..That makes me feel bad that many people took their friendship away..,.or I may be mistaken...its sad though...I hope I am mistaken...

Peace to you...Patty

When I am depressed I want to be alone. I go to my room, shut the door, watch funny programs on tv, read, talk to God...alot, and wait...

No family/friend bothers me while I am in there. They leave me be. Only Chuck is allowed to open the door and check on me. Then leave me alone.

I only do this when I hear bad news from a doc visit or my family is suffering in some way.

Thankfully, these periods only last a short time.

I come out of my room refreshed, strenghened, and ready to do what I can.

I am at peace...again.

Only now and then does RAD become so severe it takes several days to stand in the light once again.

Those are dark periods but God always brings me through.

Patty, I am sorry you are sad. Probably, the people that have taken you off friends did it because you/they didn't talk much and they were trying to downsize their list.

Though, I want to be friends with as many as possible I do not worry about if I am not.

All a person really needs is one good friend.

True happiness is how well you get along with yourself. You must love yourself. You must like youreslf...alot.

It can never be dependent on anyone else.

When I became very sick for such a long time I had to spend alot of time with me. During those hard days/months something wonderful happened.

I found me. And I fell in love with me.

Praying for you dear.

Many Hugs

Post edited by: bits, at: 07/02/2012 02:02 PM

My Depression causes me to want to be alone and like Bits in that alone time I talk to God. Read alot and do lots of praying. Thankfully I do not have as long of periods as I used to and right now my life is quite happy and fulfilled with Ben but we both are no strangers to Depression and have helped each other out even when we were over a thosand miles away. I sometimes weep but not like I used to if I do it is usually about someone else circumstances not mine. Being sick for so long has taught me how to really appreciate the small things. And though I am blessed with so many friends here who I love dearly numbers do not matter. Like bits said even if we have one true friend it is a treasure. And I am blessed with many. I have lost some along the way like Postman (whom I loved dearly as a friend) but will always have them in my heart. Patty please know you are loved!!

When I am in a state of depression, I wish I could be left alone, but my partner likes to talk and be talked to. Since she doesn't understand clinical depression, I have to push myself to communicate with her. Like now. Everyday is a struggle, but I know that I have friends here and this really helps. Well, the tears are flowing again. Patty, everyone loves you here.

Thanks Cindy...But always know if you need to cry , its ok

Hugs, Patty

Thanks, Patty, and again they start. Too many tears cause the eyelids to sag.

Hugs to you,

cindy

how my depression affects me:

it has made it nearly impossible to hold any kind of friendships. it has also prevented me from doing alot of things i wanted to do as a child and growing up. it stops me from doing small things like clean or go on a walk. i truly believe my depression is a result of all my other problems.

i salute all of you here who can talk about your stories. i hope to one day be like that again.

you're all in my thoughts.

hugs to all.

My Depression has affected me more than its affected others in so many negative ways. I'm coping , just by surviving each day.

One day at at time.

Affected more than others?? Sorry to hear that.

My son has depression also. He is 13 and has survived 2 flatline spinal surgeries and has overcome so much more. His battles run deep. Daily. But i would never say his or mine is worse than anyone elses. We are all fighters for our lives in our own right.

Maybe i misunderstood. Im sensative tonight but making the best of the positives. So i apologize if ive upset anyone. Sincerely apologize.

Post edited by: groovypixie, at: 09/06/2012 07:01 PM

Depression for me... hurts deep. I get foggy brained. Recluse. Yesterday is the first time in years i really reached out and that was here on MDJ. I was in bed 98% of the day. I pray and pray for sleep and to wake up feeling better