Depression Support Group

Hey. So this is my first time on this site and I don't really know how to start.

I guess I have a kind of history of depression. I've never been officially diagnosed, but I've been seeing a therapist for about two years now, on and off. Most of the time I guess I'm okay. I go through periods of feeling horrible about myself and everything around me. Usually I'm able to distract myself until it goes away or somehow make myself feel better. But this time is different. I can't seem to get.. comfortable anywhere. Nothing is helping.

If there was an actual problem this time, I'd feel better. Like there was something to solve. But it's just a bunch of little things. Stuff that even put together shouldn't add up to me feeling this horrible. I feel like nothing matters. Like I don't want to be here anymore. I really am trying to feel better. I'm trying to talk to people, do stuff I like, but it's not doing anything.

I can certainly sympathize with you. Over the last 11+ years I have had several bouts with depression, but I have to admit I did not go see my doctor each time. The first time could have been catastrophic, but I was married (happily) at the time and she prevented me from doing something ill advised. I did see my doctor and she put me on medication, but I was never able to pin point my stressor that caused it. I was fine until about 5 years ago, thanks to my now ex-wife, when I went through a terrible period, I felt and looked like a zombie and I had my whole family worried, but back to medications and I got better. I have had two other episodes with the last one finishing this April, by the time I got into see my doctor, it had pretty much subsided.

I have found that trying something or mentally challenging distracts me when I get depressed. My one vice is crossword puzzles and now I am crossword puzzle addict, I am using three or four different puzzle books right now.

Thank you.

I'm trying to keep my brain working on other things. I'm a writer and I need to really finish editing my book this summer. Still it's like I can't get out of this hole. I haven't eaten anything today and I feel sick, but when I try to move I just end up crying. I don't know how to stop this. My head, my body, everything just feels like a prison.

Hey Carrie my name is Viv and it is really nice to meet you and have you here with us in our group. Depression seems to work this way for alot of us it does me too but I do see someone for it and take medication for it which helps. Maybe you should consider this if this is an option for you.

One thing that has really helped me since 08 is being here at MDJ and meeting other folks and talking to them. There are lots of groups here and lots of great people that truely do understand. I also like to do flowers and my garden this summer and read. But I have been to where you are when all I want to do is cry and stay in bed. That is not a good place to be. We are all here for you and hope to help in anyway possible. Depression is not easy but you can live with it. Many blessings to you my dear!

Thank you, Viv.

I don't know why I'm scared of medication. I do see someone, and she does help, but this last week or so has just been getting worse and worse. I made an appointment with my physician tomorrow, so I'll see what he recommends.

I don't know what is making me feel this way, but it helps to feel like I can reach out and have people to talk to.

Really thank you.

Carrie you are so welcome and I am glad to hear you are seeing someone. I used to be scared of medication then I got to the point I thought how could it be any worse on it. I had to tried a few before one really gave me the relief I now have but it does make a difference for me. Of course we are all different.

I am glad to know you are seeing your doctor and glad you are reaching out that makes a difference right there. It is hard when we feel that bad to keep reaching out but it has helped me tremendously. I am glad to be here for you. I have been around MDJ for a longtime now. Hope to get to talk to you soon. Many Blessings!