Depression Support Group

I am new to this website and just wanted to let you know a little about myself. I have suffered from clinical depression for 18 yrs now. I have been on the same medication for the last 10 years. Enough of that. I don't even know where to begin. Anyway, at the ripe old age of 9 I was molested by a neighbor family friend. A few other adult males as family friends had tried to do the same. Anyway, I know that this isn't the group so I will move on. I was the victim of much bullying all through school. All I was ever told was to grow up. My father was not kind either. He use to tell me that if I didn't talk so much, people wouldn't know how stupid I was. This on top of the verbal attacks when he was drinking. My mother is a rather cold woman, distant. Her idea of building one's self-esteem is to take them shopping to buy them clothes. Meaning me. I always felt misunderstood in life. Even today, I feel misunderstood. I don't know where else to turn. I don't know what else to do. My Partner doesn't understand depression. She says she does, but she really doesn't. She's been in a state of depression since losing her beloved brother, our home, our jobs and her father all in the 18 months. She doesn't understand that I lost these things also. Every other minute, she says that she can't do this anymore, meaning that she wants to leave me. We have a 19 yr old daughter. She doesn't want to be her mother anymore. Therapy? Forget it. It will never happen with her. I miss my therapist. I had her for 8 yrs. I can't go see her. The Partner will get mad. I am a Christian and I have been praying for the Lord to call me home. He doesn't answer, but I will keep praying. I will try to write tomorrow. Take care everyone

I hope that since you posted things have gotten better. I am sorry your partner is not understanding, but you need to take care of you, if seeing your therapist helps then you need to go see her, even if your partner gets angry. It sounds like she to needs help, but you cannot force someone to get therapy. But you do need to do what is best for you, I know that sometimes putting yourself first is hard but you need to be healthy otherwise the other areas in your life wont be healthy.

I will pray for you!

Best Wishes

Pretty much what the person above me said.

If your partner isn't allowing you to get the help it sounds like you need, then something needs to change.