Depression Support Group

Post edited by: zaylia, at: 12/07/2011 08:23 AM

Oh no Zay im sorry you going thru this, im glad you posted.I am here for you even if i dont know what to say, i can just listen, maybe go see a therapist if you can..

I know this might sound stupid but in the beginning when i joined MDJ you told me to go look in the forums for the positive quotes and stuff especially in the positivity groups and theres so many sites available to, maybe just try that if you can

Im thinking of you my angel friend

Post edited by: zaylia, at: 12/07/2011 08:24 AM

Zaylia, I'm sorry your depression is back again. I worry every year around this time of year where the depression will hit me. I was very close the past month myself but seem to get out of it but for me. January is the time it usually hits strong for me. However this year I am on a different antidepressant and I believe it works much better. I was on Lexapro for some years but been on Prisiq for almost a year and it's really been better helping to keep my depression under control. I can only say that whenever I recognize the signs of depression coming my way, I know I can't ignore it. I have to get the help I need. I have to tell my doctor and I have to make an appointment with a therapist. Don't let it go, get help for it. Feel free to share here anytime if you need support. Rachele

That is awesome you're doing better! Always nice to hear of good stories. It is this time of year, but also going longer and longer without addiction crap, and my sister living here. Just learning on here about myself is real great, but it is over-whelming how many things I have been in denial over. I never used to be one to be in denial, but after what I guess was severe depression I got scared of so much much. Especially depression. Technically, accoring to my doc I have still always been depressed but, it doesn't feel that way because of how low I was. this summer for 2 months I think I wasn't depressed, can't think clearly about it now, but i was smoking pot.. haha hard to know.. I am fairly certian I am going to try meds and just not be scared of getting depressed so much. The fear will only cause more problems. I left this group feeling it was my best call, but it is really just letting denial creep around. I thought being scared of it was good, but ya thought it out. Not so much. Anyways, I am sure everything will turn out. I have great support in my life and MDJ the last couple months. I'd be shocked if I continued to get worse. I think it is my sis being home all the time, me not geting the place to myself(which I absolutely need) and getting over addictions. my depression is not from something bad so that is VERY good and an VERY grateful for that. I truly am lucky, going to focus on that!

and angelbaby i am going to read in those groups whether it is frustrating or not at times, because it will pass. thank you for the reminder! and i see my psychologist next week, not in 2 now

it'll be all good!

Post edited by: zaylia, at: 12/08/2011 10:06 AM

I have chronic depression. Have had one or two bad episodes that were just scary to go through, so much so that I vowed never to let myself get to that point without help again. This is a difficult time of year but I'm fighting to stay afloat. I try to force myself out of the house when I feel bad, usually feel somewhat better when I do. Addictions are diffiuclt because it's a daily lifetime recovery for most. We have to fight the good fight, not the bad fight. Hang in there. Rachele

thanks for your reply. im glad you are able to be positive. hopefully the winter is alright for the next few months wherever you live

It's not easy trying to find positive thoughts but just do the best I can. The past few nights been hard, can't sleep. It's so hard to function when you don't sleep at night and have to carry on with your day. Thanks, yeah lets hope the winter isn't so bad. Fingers crossed.

Post edited by: Peace4Rach, at: 12/13/2011 01:27 AM

I'm sorry you aren't sleeping well! The last few months I have been sleeping better than I have my whole life. I don't get insomnia anymore. I just got so angry and crazy from it that I had to change it, and became convinced I could change it. After a bit of practice and different ways.. What worked for me was to just go, this is my bed, this is my head on my pillow, my faovrite blanket is covering me, the lights are off, and things like that. Just my own way of meditating I guess. And, now I don't lay awake longer than an hour ever. Usually fall asleep within 15 minutes.

Depression is a pain. I am diagnosed with Dysthymia. I take Well-butrin and it has helped a lot. It keeps me on my toes and certainly humble - I can't think I'm free because depression is always following me around.

In my toolbox, you will find the following items:

1. I try to spend a few moments during the day to meditate and practice mindfulness all day long every minute in the hour.

2. I carry my "lawyer briefcase" in my head. I don't just believe and accept my thoughts as gospel truth. I question them all the time and they are alway under scrutiny whether they are realistic or delusional.

3. I make it a point to manage my emotions and not allow my emotions to dictate my outlook for the day.

4. I constantly read self-help books to learn new information and gain knowledge.

5. I visit my therapist once a week like clock-work.

6. I surround myself with family and friends especially when I want to be alone.

7. I take my meds regulary and as per direction.

8. I stay away from alcohol and illegal drugs. I need all my wits and my abilities to stay on track. I cannot give my depression any room to move around in my life, if I let my guard down; it will try to cause a mutiny in my head and take over!

Usually, there is a reason for my behavior and my feelings. Do you know the source of your depression and/or your triggers? Denial will never solve anything, it will only give you an excuse not to face your demons and your inner conflicts. We try to pretend they don't exist, as we face life, those inner conflicts and demons are still there biding their time and growing stronger until they are able to take control of our thoughts and enslave our emotions. I try to avoid Denial at all cost. Denial has not been a very good friend.

That's is what I try to do each day. You may not do the same things I do because you and I are different people with different personalities and experiences. Consider some of the tools that I use, I've found them very applicable and is works really good for me.

Good luck! I hope you find peace and happiness!