Depression Support Group

I am so depressed about my life. I have no friends and my B/F works out of state all week, plus the relationship is not very good.

So I sit in my house , and think about how lonely I am , and how I should go for a walk , should do this , should do that and honestly I am at the point where I can`t even go to the grocery store .

I am so isolated it is killing me...i do not know where this is going to end or how it is going to end. Day after day is the same. I feel like I am dying a slow death . I know some answers, get out of the house and do something, anything, right now I can`t. How did I end up like this?

I really got very depressed after my Mom died 6 years ago, I have no one who understands. I am usally sick to my stomach, the feeling, not actually sick, I cry so much I can`t stand it, I want to run away. I feel like dying but would never do that.

My family ignores me because they don`t understand and think I am crazy. Snap out of it is what they tell me.

I don`t have enough to do , so after the little houswork , I have hours of nothing to do and sometimes coming on here depresses me more as I read some peoples stories that are worse then me.

I honestly do not know what to do, there is no happy pill, there is no pill to make me feel less isolated, no pill to find a friend, I pray to God to help me.

I don`t know how much more of this I can take without cracking. So most likely my Pdoc will increase or change a med. Still won`t bring me a friend or get me out of this isolated part of town .

I am about to give in and just watch tv all day or movies , just sit around and try to accept this is my life forever.

I have given up the fight .

Post edited by: lovebug1959, at: 08/09/2011 05:27 AM

lovebug, that is not your life forever....Please do not say this....You can make your life how you want it to be....

do you have any interests you can cultivate? Getting out so you don't dwell on your situation may help, if just to distract you, and tire you out by getting some exercise. Trying to think positive can help. We make our own reality. Don't depend on others for your happiness. Think of people who seem to have it together, and how they must feel and act.

I was seriously injured 23 yrs ago, with brain damage, and a weakened body, and as a reward if I ever recovered, I planned a year long trip all around the country, seeing everything I wanted to, and then to settle down somewhere I wanted to, in the country, having everything I wanted. Figured the planning would distract me from my situation, and help me recover from my brain damage, and memory problems. After planning, I still didn't feel capable, and kept hoping. I didn't want to do or have what I wanted, and not be able to handle or enjoy it. It can get depressing, and I still struggle to just do everyday things. Then I think, what if I managed to do the things planned, and be stuck somewhere, not able to do or enjoy it, and regret I managed to get to it? I feel, if I am able it will Just Happen, like one day I will wake, and Just Start. If not, I may be better off staying where I am, and just dreaming. Early on, I had a friend who had had a stroke, and he was willing to take the trip, and would have been a companion, and help with costs. I wasn't ready, and he got sick, and eventually died. I better stop thinking about what could have been, and do what I have to to get through today...

Try to think positive, and enjoy small things.

I know the reality of depression is as many of you described, not feeling you are able to accomplish anything or change the feelings. But I agree with you Houndman that we need to not dwell on our situation too much cause it makes things worse. I also find it difficult to accomplish things that my non depressed counterparts are able to do. It's frustrating to say the least. And I often have to stop myself from dwelling or wallowing in my inner pain. I have to literally force myself to do something or just get out of the house. I sleep some during the day but I set an alarm and look at a list of possible to do's. Things can change just takes some effort on our parts and a bit of saying all will be ok instead of of everything horrible. When we say the horrible we tend to create a self-fullfilling prophecy. Let's not do that. Hugs, Rachele

Thanks everyone, I di dgo out of the house today, had to, had an appt. but it makes me feel alive to go to town and see people and activities, even if I don`t know them, its stimulating. But then I come home to the country where I am alone all week and I instantly feel depressed cuz I want to be back in town.

Hello Lovebug my name is Viv and it is really nice to meet you and have you here with us in our group. It is really hard when you lose someone and depression sets in and others that don't have it do not understand. I know the feeling I live alone and am wheelchair bound. You know how many times I use to hear just pick yourself up and dust yourself off. (I am from TN). Well of course if it was that easy I would have done that a longtime ago. They don't understand.

It is a slow process sometimes but it can get better. It is hard to find positive things but look and think about the positive things you have. I call it counting my blessings. It can be as simple as the roof over my head and the t.v and internet. I will make a list when I am really down and somehow even though I can't see it my blessing list always comes out longer than the negative things I feel.

Maybe you could take a trip to town every now and then besides just to go to the doctor and walk around. I used to love going to the library and met a very good friend there. The rest of my friends and family I love are here on MDJ! I have met so many wonderful people here and many who I am so close too. I look forward to getting to know you. Sorry it took me awhile to answer I am having health issues right now but am still here. Many blessings to you dear!

Post edited by: mitzigirl, at: 08/09/2011 03:26 PM

Luvbug, I'd love to come home to the country. I'm stuck in the city. Shame you can't find interests or interesting things where you live. I'd be out exploring nature. When young I used to spend summers in a small country town, and the shock of spending summers in the city still stresses me. Luckily there are Big parks here, with lakes, and even a wildlife preserve part inside the city limits not far away. They were my escape, and still are when I can get to them.

Some people would love the isolation, like a painter ow writer. What about gardening? Something to make where you are interesting? Try thinking about what your situation might be ideal for. Maybe you can turn it into an ideal.