Depression Support Group

Just stopping in to mention - I am very depressed.

Have been running low for a while now.

Feeling alone and cold.

Hope you are all doing better.

hugs

I'm just like you Raoul,

very depressed and I just want to close my eyes and sleep the day away but I have my 6 year old grandson with me for 2 wks so I need to snap out of it, I get pretty good at faking it but yesterday was so tramatizing for me that I just don't know how much longer I can fake it. Good luck to you!

Raoul, I wondered where you went. Good to see you, but I'm sorry that you are so down. Unfortunately, everybody seems to have some sort of crisis going on lately. I hope that you are feeling better soon.

Adelle, if you posted something about what was traumatizing yesterday, I'm sorry I must have missed it, tho I thought I'd read all posts from yerserday. Could surely have forgotten w/ every condition in my body in flare and the fog's almost too thick to see thru.

Unless it's something you don't want to post, what happened yesterday? I hope you feel better. I'm envious as hell, of course, but won't having your grandson cheer you up? Uh - other choice - he cheers you but you're not well enough to feel confident of 2 weeks?

Peace,

Sylvia

Post edited by: Sylvia4648, at: 06/05/2011 11:00 AM

Sylvia it was the first time I had seen my son in 40 days behind and glass being able to see him but not touch him, I've never been to a jail and he is in the county jail for 90 days of intense rehab for breaking probation, I was just angry at first (40days ago) then my anger turned to sadness and then the mother in me kicked in and it was all about what can I do to help, so I rented a car and drove 2 hours to see him and it was very traumatic to sit and talk thru a telephone and then to walk away and leave him with a sheriff deputy standing behind him waiting to take him back. He isn't in with any theives or rapists or anything, they are all probation violators for drugs but the long walk back down a cement corridor to downstairs exit I lost it all alone and I didn't get the chance to get it all out because I didn't want to do that in front of the babies and I'm sure this too shall pass but right now I just want to pull the covers over my head.

Sylvia - thanks for the kind words.

Adllmag - I am sorry your son has brought you so much grief. However, you might feel better by thanking God that he is now in a safe place where he cannot harm himself or someone else. Sometimes jail is a blessing and a gift. I just hope he learns how to keep himself into a better place when he gets out.

hugs, Raoul

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Post edited by: Raoul, at: 06/05/2011 03:22 PM

Well Raoul I got a sign today,

this message was on my page and it is so perfect for today it was the only thing that made me smile it said:

God wants you to know

that it's time you let go. Yes, of course, you want to control so everything happens in just the way you want it. But at the end of the day, we control nothing, - it's all in God's hands, - has always been, and will always be. So, do what you can, and then let go, and let God handle the rest.

Now I know we are not suppose to preach on here and I would never because I am not very religious but I would call that message sent directly to me

This whole past week was H*LL for me. I kept reminding myself, "What does not kill me will make me stronger". I hope God gives us all a break this week. You're a very brave man, Raoul, to admit to your depression.