Depression Support Group

Hi everyone been a while since i have posted anything. Guess I have been lost in my own thoughts lately. I figured I need to post now been getting worse and I need some advice. My fears are getting out of hand and my depression worse. I have not left my house in days only to get the mail and that is only at night when no one will see me. Hard to explain but I have a fear of anyone seeing me lately I think it is because of the weight I have gained. I even cancelled my appointments with my pychiatrist because I didn't want to walk up there in the daylight . I actually get anxiety attacks at the thought of it. This along with my lawyer telling me I have no chance of getting my son back is making my depression so much worse. I have no energy to do anything but sleep. And that is only periodically. but what is getting to me the most is the irrational fears, not wanting anyone to see me, having to make sure doors are locked at all times, juming if phone rings afraid to answer it,afraid the house is going to burn down if i cook on my stove etc. good grief i am driving myself insane. lol and i must sound it as well. please any advice to help me pull myself out of this would be appriciated.

I am sorry you are feeling this way. Can you start small trying to get out of this by maybe accomplishing something around the house, like organizing something. Then maybe take a walk around the block. More importantly you might need to call your psychiatrist and let him/her know what is going on. Small steps forward and hopefully you will start feeling better. Why does your lawyer say your not going to get your son? You don't know yet so don't already count yourself out. Keep posting and let us know how you are doing.

It seems that I am a very simmilar boat that you are in in terms of depression and anxiety getting worse. I gained about 20lbs because of one of the medications that I was on (I'm not on it anymore, but I haven't lost the weight). I am afraid of people seeing me...I've resorted to wearing close that are huge on me. I feel like everyone I come in contact with is disgusted by me and talking about how fat I am...I just want to stay in bed and not get up, ever. I have come up with probably the worst coping mechanism...not eating, and when i do I throw it up. I know this is a terrible thing to do and it is not at all healthy. I am well aware of the risks, but it seems to be the only thing that makes me feel the slightest bit better. I don't know what advice to give you, but you are not alone. I am going to see a councelor at the school today...if she gives me any ideas I will let you know...

Davesprettylady, I am glad you are going to your appt today. How long have you been purging what you eat? I say this because I have been bulimic for a very long time and this is not a road you want to go down. It doesn't help you lose weight and messes up your metabolism and health issues.

Do something for yourself today, do something that makes you feel good (healthy way), do something that is going to energize you. I am going to read my book something I really like to do and gives me time for myself.

ty both for your replys crazycat i will try to do something to take my mind off of it just moved into new apartment so will maybe fixup spare bedroom today. davesprettylady i have been bulimic for 25 years and crazycat is right it is not a road you want to go down. I have lost my teeth, damaged a main cranial nerve in my throght i cannot feel my face or mouth and i get shooting pain into my ear due to purging. please if you have the ability to stop do it now.

Welcome back skyrose! I would say even if you have to put on a disguise go see yout psychiatrist! It sounds like you need something for your anxiety and you may need something to calm yourself. Are you on any meds right now? Are they the cause of the weight gain? or combination of staying inside, sedentary. I remember when I first experienced a panic attack, they are scarey and I had high anxiety, I would go to the post office and if there was a line and I had to wait I would look at everyone around me and look at there boxes or brief cases and think there was a bomb and would get anxious that we were all going to get blown up. Its horrible when you have these thoughts, when I get too anxious now I go out somewhere anywhere even if its just to get some fresh air, it clears your head but definitely go back to your psychiatrist appointments so you can received the help you need, you always have our support

Good idea, fixing up your apt. Sounds like fun, I read a little bit and actually got somethings done around the house. Also, I know what you are saying about being bulimic and the teeth and shooting pain in the ear is horrible. I have been putting off the dentist but know I need a lot of work. Hope that will make you realize davesprettylady not to go down that road just for temporarily relief.

Hey Skyrose sorry your having such a rough time but glad you came back to post. I think it is a great ideal to fix up one room in your new apt. That is a great way to start to help yourself feel some better. I do agree though you need to be in touch with you psy. doctor and let them know what is going on.

see even getting out to talk to my doctor turns out to be a bad idea. I made myself leave today and go. been in so much pain i can't even walk accross the room hardly. I was going to talk with him about all this, not being comfortable leaving the house and all but I ask another question first. I ask if i could up my pain meds by 1 pill. All of a sudden I am a lier and a drug addict, and forced to take a drug test. I am so tired of being accused of that when i am far from being addicted to anything. maybe staying in the house is a good idea after all. I mean every time i leave i am being accused of something it seems and i am doing nothing to noone. I am not a drug addict my scrip is only 2mg and i could take it or leave it. sigh. first my ex and daughter accuse me of this now my doctor. Think I will just stay in here and not bother taking my meds anymore.

Oh I am so sorry that happened, wow did he talk to you about anything else besides making you take a drug test???? Sorry you feel you are being attacked and please don't give up. Can you find another doc?? I switched docs because I felt like I wasn't getting the help I needed.