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The Lights of Our Hearts
written by lostgurl
dedicated to Chris Benson
Sept. 4, 1984 – Aug. 18, 2008

The lights of our hearts have dimmed today,
for with God's calling you went away.
The newest angel to sit by his side,
has brought to his eyes a gleam of pride.
But what of us whom you've left behind?
Within earthly chains we remain confined.
Rage, confusion, and despair whirl in rapid haste
from the brutal reality we are forced to face.
Seemingly trapped within an infinite void,
full of painful tears impossible to avoid.
To turn back time is our unwavering dream,
when our heartache is at its most extreme.
Nothing in the world could ever take the place
of your laugh, your smile, or your warm embrace.
But we must find a way to continue on,
to make a new life without our beloved son.
Through the darkest of tunnels we trod ahead,
regretting petty angers and I love you's unsaid.
I pray for the day we may find some solace.
Perhaps when we meet in God's great palace.

If you need me please PM me. You can also go to my profile at http://www.mdjunction.com/mem/48347 and see if I am online and chat with me immediately. I am jsrdrnr on aim and yahoo and add @ hotmail.com for msn. Please let me know that you are from MDJ so I dont just delete your message. I am also jsrdrnr on pogo.com. Get in touch with me anytime. I am here for ya!!!

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10mg Abilify
20mg Citalopram HBR (Celexa)
300mg Seroquel
1mg Lorazepam (Ativan) PRN (up to 3 per day)
25-50mg Benadryl PRN for sleep






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If you ever need me & im not on here, try my yahoo IM- Babygirlluv1978 or my email babygirlluv1978@yahoo.com, or also im play pogo alot at pogo.com, my name is cdm62108
Groups I am In:
ADHD Support Group, http://www.mdjunction.com/adhd-because my lil girl has ADHD
Anxiety Disorders Support Group, http://www.mdjunction.com/anxiety-disorders- because I have anxiety
Depression Support Group, http://www.mdjunction.com/depression - because I have depression
Insomnia Support Group, http://www.mdjunction.com/insomnia - because sometimes I cant sleep
Neurofibromatosis Support Group, http://www.mdjunction.com/neurofibromatosis- because my 2 nephews have NF
Obsessive Compulsive Disorder Support Group, http://www.mdjunction.com/obsessive-compulsive-disorder- because I have OCD
Panic Attacks Support Group, http://www.mdjunction.com/panic-attacks- because I have severe panic attacks
Self Esteem & Positive Thinking Support Group, http://www.mdjunction.com/positive-thinking- because I try to stay positive
Shyness Support Group, http://www.mdjunction.com/shyness- because my hubby is shy
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*Cast all you anxiety on (God), because he cares for you. I Peter 5:7
*I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.- Phil 4:13
*So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.- Isaiah 41:10
*For I the Lord thy God will hold thy right hand, saying unto thee, Fear not; I will help thee. - Isaiah 41:13
*"Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight." -Proverbs 3:5-6
*Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.- Psalm 23:4