Depression Support Group

for so many months i was doing very well mentally. i am falling apart again. i take meds for this crap and i still get messed up. i going down the tubes phjysically and i can't handle it. i'm so very sad, having panic attacks and get violently angry. i thought i had gotten better this yr. i can't believe this happening again. i'm losing it. i'm so horrible to my husband. i feel like i gave everything a try for yrs and now i deserve peace. i wanted today to be better and instead i lost it. i was going to go out with my husband for dinner but everything is ruined. i ruin everything.

Hi ... sounds to me like you are having a relapse ... that can happen & actually is kinda expected to happen. Each episode of depression seems to be different ... and worse. I've heard that 20% of recovery is the drugs and 80% is changing your way of thinking ... you need to try to find what triggers you. It also could be as simple as needing a med change ... take that back, it's not easy with med changes either! You don't ruin everything ... you need to get your body acclimated again. I hate those panic attacks. Everybody has a bad day ... but for those of us with depression & anxiety don't/can't handle it as well. Just take one day at a time & please don't beat yourself up ... this is a disease!

it feels like when i get mad at him and scream or whatever that we are automatically going to get divorced and/or the world is going to end. it's disgusting.

I AM GOING THROUGH THE SAME THING RIGHT NOW. MY HUBBY LOST HIS JOB 3 WEEKS AGO AND IM SO DEPRESSED AND SCARED ABOUT OUR FUTURE AND ALL WE DO IS ARGUE AND WHEN WE DO I TELL HIM ...I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE AND IM GOING CRAZY IN MY MIND TRYING TO DEAL WITH EVERYTHING AND MY DEPRESSION GETTING WORSE. I FEEL HE DOESNT UNDERSTAND DEPRESSION BUT HE IS TOO BUSY WITH EVERYTHING ELSE TO REALLY TAKE TIME TO LEARN.

SO DONT FEEL ALONE I AM IN THE SAME BOAT AND CLUELESS ABOUT WHAT TO DO TOO.

I'm sorry to hear what you are going through, If anyone feels like PM-ing me, I am here to listen. I hope all of you have a better week.

You didn't ruin everything, it's your disease. No one thinks of depression as an actual disease and it is. Don't hate yourself....look deep inside. Do you have a good therapist? You know alcholic's have relapses. All diseases do. The key is to get treatment. If you ever want to talk feel free to PM me.