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I have a good friend in the hospital....if she passes away....i think i might join her....she is like family to me.

So please use this thread to pray for my friend....i assure you she is an angel wirh a heart of gold...

i don't know what will happen to me if she goes.

i just don't know what i'l do....

Please lord don't take her sooner than you have to.

God Bless her.

Sweetheart

Viv is very sick but she is stong in will.

We all know she is terminal and can leave us anytime.

But we must never give up hope and hold on tight to our faith that God takes us home when He is ready.

Viv talks about Heaven very often and longs to go home.

Viv has been ready for a long time.

However, she loves being here and working for God. Yes, Viv knows this is the job He wants her to do. That is why she is so successful in helping many people here.

Please, don't worry dear, she knows you love and care for her.

But it would break her heart if she thought, for a minute, her going home would cause anyone to grieve so badly they wouldn't want to live.

Viv is a light unto the darkness. She is a beacon in the storm.

Always will be.

I will talk to you after I visit her today.

Hugs

Well said Bits. Glad you will be able to visit with her. Viv has been ready for a long time. She has told me many times that she is ready whenver God decides to call her home. She loves all of us as family and knows how much we love her and have been so blessed by her kindness and care for everyone. What Viv wouldn't want is for any of us to choose not to carry out lives if she goes. Viv has appreciated life to the fullest extent despite all the challenges in her life. I think that's why I love so much about her is her courage and true zest and appreciation for life and the lives of others around her. She is a true inspiration. She hardly complains with all her medical issues and still can find things to laugh about no matter what. She told me on many occaissions, she thought she would die laughing and that's not such a bad way to go. I will continue to pray for her. Viv is strong, yet I have no other choice but to leave it to highter power that's greater than me.

Post edited by: Peace4Rach, at: 02/13/2010 12:34 PM

Yes, Rach, Viv has also told me she is ready. She wishes for a peaceful end - and I think she deserves that w/ all she's been thru. And I'm not saying she won't be home tomorrow. We all know our Viv. I kid her that she'll outlive us all, and she cracks up every time.

I guess what I'm trying to say is if they can't do anything to make her more comfortable than she's been, I want whetever she wants,but when she goes, I - as I'm sure we all do - want it to be peaceful.

Best,

Sylvia

Does anyone ( during a very hard time ) say the words "I WANT TO GO HOME" while crying their eyes out? I have caught myself saying this out loud when the pain is too much to bare. I was just wondering if this happens to others.

One time when I was crying so hard over my Mom I said that out loud in front of my husband, and he said YOU ARE HOME. I didnt know what to reply back, because I didnt ubderstand what I actually was saying, but I do now.

Patty

Well not quite those words have I said during hard times Patty. I have not said I want to go home but rather I just want to die. I really don't think I mean I want to die cause I'm petrified of death and even more so since my mom died. But I have wished I didn't have to put up with certain stuff in my life and just wanted it all to go away or rather, in my words: "Make the world go away." If for just a little while, I would not have any worries or anything to take care. Rather just be!

Post edited by: Peace4Rach, at: 02/13/2010 05:46 PM

Im not sure, but losing Mom , dad , sis and brother and other very close people to me all before the age of 38 yo, I think that took my fear of death away.

Im kind of curious, maybe getting older now, I look at it differently. The pain will never go away of my losses, but I do feel and have Faith we will all have life after death. Maybe not Heaven right away, but something before it that keeps our souls alive until the real end or it could be the beginning.

Something to think about

Blessings

Patty

Patty, I think that's the heart of it right there with fears of death. Half of me really believes there is something more and the other half is not certain and scared. Guess I'm lacking in faith. I envy people that have so much faith. Maybe if I keep looking in the right direction, I will get some guidance with this issue. Hoping I can get more connected to my spiritual self and find a therapist to help me do it. Working on it.

There was a time I feared death. But that has been a long time ago.

I often think about Heaven. I try to picture it. I think about meeting my loved ones and never being parted again. I think about no more pain, sickness, fears, sadness, tears, etc. I think about joy unimaginable.

I think about walking the streets of gold and talking with John, Peter, Abraham, Sarah, etc..

I think about seeing Jesus. I often wonder how I will react.

I think I will have to bow down because He is so wonderful.

Or will I run to Him and hug Him?

I'm not sure.

I think about the throne of God and God being there.

oh my...it is just too big for me to really get a grip on it.

I wonder what job God will have me do.

Yes, I long for Heaven but I am not finished here. I love my life and am in no hurry to cross over.

But someday He will call me home and I am ready.

I never really understood about not being afraid to die until I became so sick.

Then I understood. And now, death holds no fear for me.

I know...I really know...He is real, as real as I am. And I know He loves me and has made a place in Heaven for me.

Not because I am so good, on no,...because He is.

Hugs

Unscarred: and all. I am so glad that you guys have thought to do this for Viv. I don't know her only from here and I am with you unscarred about your feelings. But she would not want for us to give up hope. My prayers are with you and everyone today so much. My heart is with you guys