Co-Dependent Personality Support Group

Last night a mutual friend of Her and I reached out and I wrote back. At one point I typed the line, "Maybe this is a fool's last hope before letting go." I then went and listened to Bonnie Raitt. This is the last bits of hope for her leaving me, and I have to let them and her go. Maybe not forever, but for right now. I just moved away, I'm still getting my life in order, and my family and my boundaries with the members of my family are a mess. I have larger fish to fry that I need to focus on. I need to focus on me and she can't walk with me.

This feels like step one of CoDA, "I am powerless over other people- my life has become unmanageable." Maybe she and I will meet again. Maybe she'll turn out to just need some time and have patience of steel so she can sit and wait. Maybe it's all for not. I don't know. But I can't sit and wait. I have to let her go.

Somewhere through all this mess of emotion, all my unhealthy patterns, and the myriad issues I have deep feelings for her - a deep affection for the human being that spent the day with me a month ago. It won't be hard to fall back in love with her if the opportunity ever presents itself. For now I have to let go and focus on that so that I can keep walking forward.

Dani, Dani. Oh Dani. One day you are going to realize what an incredible gem of a person you are and then you won't even WANT him anymore. I know I am not the only one that sees what a kind and generous soul you are. My grandma always used to say, "The most important thing is kindness". (Course with us CoDAs the hardest part of being kind is to ourselves!!) You are a rare and special person - I do hope you will learn to love that person we all know and see how lucky any man would be to be with you!

Redwood

Jones, great attitude and great exampleof how we can apply step one to our lives. You never know what the future brings, and now you are focusing on one of the biggest journeys in life: recovery. It changes everything. Keep up the work jones