gmlynch99
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: Currently I am grieving over the loss of my oldest brother. I feel a little isolated from my family. I live in New Hampshire and my family lives in Mass. They live on the South Shore. We all shared time together after Billy's wake/service. Billy died suddenly while he was staying on the Cape. He was down there planning his daughter Amanda's 18th birthday. He was an alcoholic since he was a young man, but in recent years, he has been treated for Bipolar Disorder. Chances are he has been Bipolar for years. His drinking and smoking habits have taken a toll on his health in recent years. Only recently, after many personal upheavals, Billy began drinking again. I feel guilty for not reaching out to him for the past year during his period with personal difficulties. I was afraid that he was going to ask to stay with my husband and I. I debated with my husband why I should help my brother, but we did not have the resources or the ability to halp Billy. I did write to him a letter in the past, but I did not write enough letters to let him know that I loved my big brother and appreciated him and valued him whether he was sick or not. I was going to write him or try to call him recently, but did not have an address. How can I reconcile the guilt I feel? I am so sad for not telling him that he was loved and cared for by his little sister.  |
