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Well last year was a VERY hard year. It started out great, but went down hill fast. In January my fiance, Tony, and I found out we were having a baby. We were ecstaic, this would be our first child and we were embracing parenthood with arms wide open. My pregnancy was labeled high-risk because I have a blood clotting dissorder. Well, Tony's aunt became sick and died, that was only the beginning. Next, in about April his brother who had been sick for a while also passed away and Tony took this very hard, that was his only brother. About 3 weeks after Sammy(Tony's brother) died, Tony's grandmother died. We delivered Noah Caiden Brown on Sept 13, 2007 1 month before he was due. He was put in the neo-natal intensive care unit, because he was premature and had been under stress. Noah weighed 7lbs and was 18in long, he had the most beautiful complexion, probably because he was bi-racial, I am white and Tony is black, and he had a head-full of black hair. Noah died 2weeks later of blood clots. His death has taken a huge tole on my family in particular. At the beginning my family didn't want to accept Tony and I having a baby, but quickly accepted it and were excited. My moma went to every dr's appt. with us. She also blamed herself, because she carries the blood clotting gene that I have and Noah died from. My parents stayed with Tony and I the entire 2weeks Noah was in the hospital. We had to stay at a Ronald McDonald house, because the hospital Noah was in was over an hour away. My daddy had left the day before Noah died, because we all thought things were getting better and he had business to tend to back at home. The night Noah died my daddy who works for the sheriff's dept had the sheriff frive him to where we were and he chose to hold Noah all the way home instead of having a herse. Until that night my daddy had never held Noah, because he was scared of getting too attatched, but it was too late, he was allready attatched. Last year was hard for us and we can only hope that this year will be better. |
