Cyclothymia Support Group

Whenever I start to cycle, I find myself thinking specific thoughts. These thoughts are "sad and hurtful" when I'm depressed and "angry" when I'm agitated. It's usually things that happened to me in my past and it's almost always the same events and thoughts. Does anyone else focus repeatedly on the same issues? Or do you just feel the episodes in more of a general way? Thanks.

Yes I think really bad suicidal thoughts and think of my past and all my mistakes and what a bad person I am and that no cares about me or really likes me and I am a fake person and that my soul is bad. Hang in there eventually they pass that is what I tell myself. If you ever want to talk i am here.

omg I do it all the time like right now with this ex friend of mine I think she is right I am a bad person no one cares about me... I am the same slut I was in the past over and over again.. I feel the same way if you both ever want to talk I'm here its just nice to know I am not alone in doing this.

Its so easy to think about all the bad things about yourself while its hard to think about the good things. I can give you page after page all about the bad things that I've done or had said or had been in. I don't know whether its because of the situation or because of my behaviors or it could be both. My life is full of them. Looking forward and stopping yourself from having the bad thoughts help. I had to stop myself and feel the pain. It hurts, especially when you're alone. Just know that you're not really alone and that there are people out there.

Iknow this sounds simplistic, but I journal/diary about my daily feelings and things that happen, and it helps to unload. Like today i wanted to punch someone out, but held it in until i could journal. My writing was not legible in areas and ranted on, but I got it off my chest a bit and now I'm not quit so obsessed. i've used this approach with depression, suicidal thoughts, thoughts of self-loathing, etc. it doesn't take it all away, but its like sharing the burden.

I wish you well.

Laurale

Exactly how i feel, I feel bad for mistakes I made as a kid, and I know I was a kid then and I di bad things and I should know that. Also I don't want to use the excuse that I have an illness but its true, im ill. But i Still feel like a shitty person