Get to some sort of Social Services agency somewhere that can best give you some direction. During the day get out with the public (people) there is still some adventure to admire in a days travels. During the evening,take a break, relax, get your meals in and a few chores acomplished. Gambling is a compulsive addiction. I have it too, and at times it is why me? I can talk if your geting back to see if there was any responce to your post. I am no expert and some E-Mail is still snail mail. Rexkz