Not sure what to do anymore

Adam

I would suggest talking to someone professionally about what you are feeling who has experience with helping people who have dealt with similar issues. Hopefully there will be other people on the site who can give advice too, but I would strongly suggest getting the name of a therapist in your area. If you have insurance, the insurance company may be able to make suggestions/look up therapists for you over the phone or via their website.

Keep your head up, and I am very happy to hear that you made a great recovery Joanna

Adam

You haven't mentioned much about your current health state. Did they remove your spleen? How's your hip? Can you walk normally?

I was also in a car accident, some seven years ago. It was very mild, I wasn't hurt, but for years I wasn't comfortable riding in a car, and I was under the impression that all cars will come crushing straight on me. It was irrational, and I knew it, but this is how I felt. I thought this will never change, I thought I'm gonna carry this anxiety with me forever, but here I am, not afraid of the incoming cars anymore, feeling normal, confident again. Excuse me for comparing our two experiences, I know that you've been through hell, while I was just a little shaken, but it was traumatic for me as well, from a psychological point of view, and my experience is that times wipes it out, to a lesser or greater extent.

There are professionals that deal exactly with this, like Joanna said. People are in therapy for much less than this, after a traumatic experience. Did you get any counsel at all during your recovery?

Adam