Chronic Pain Support Group

I'm bipolar too. And have been told if you're depressed it can cause the pain. Maybe they're right, but as for myself, I'm on 3 different meds for bipoplar, so mentally I'm doing fairly good. But the pain is awful I just want to stay in bed and not move. you have the right to be angry. I can't say I've been angry, but I have cryed, then tell myself why cry it's not going to stop the pain. I know suicide is tempting, and it will stop the pain you're suffering. But it leaves your family and friends in greater pain. They blame themselves, thinking what could I have done? I know because my husband took his life 3 years ago. Now he has a new granddaughter who will never know her PaPa. I don't know if it will ever get better. I just tell myself to live with it, and continue going to the doctor. I think my biggest problem is telling the doctors how my pain feels,and every time I see a doctor the pain doesn't seem that bad. But right now my left arm and shoulder are in such pain I could just scream. Theres no enjoyment in life when you have deal with pain day after day. God has blessed me in so many ways and I thank him everyday that I can spend one more day on earth. So what does he do for me? He shows me a person that is worse off then I am. So it's makes me less angry and helps me push through the pain. So go ahead and rant. We're here for you. So keep on ranting. And I'll keep on praying for you.

Another bipolar, pain sufferer, Terri

Cass, I'm new too. I get what you're saying. The people here, I am finding, are genuine in their care and compassion. I rant and rant and they allow it, and give back even while hurting. You'll have the chance to encourage someone soon. I hope you do. I am glad you are pursuing a masters in mental health counseling - sometimes its good just for you. You can also use what you've learned at any time - because the pain can't take your knowledge away. You won't feel like using it all the time, but when you do, it will be there. I'll pray for you too. Sometimes that is all I can do.

Glad you are here with us!

Mark

This is the first time I have posted to this site. I just saw this page yesterday and had to comment. I too have bipolar disorder, fibromyalgia and chronic persistent migraines. I never realized it was so common to have chronic pain with bipolar until I saw so many people here. I feel for your situation and really understand where you're coming from. I stumbled on this website yesterday trying to find a reason not to kill myself. Trying to find hope. I didn't find answers but I found common ground and at least that's a start. I also understand your feelings for your cat. In 2004, I lost my Tuxi. I'd had her 13 years, since I was 17, rescued mewling from a snow bank. Her death triggered an episode that lasted 6 months, destroyed my life and landed me in a hospital. Pets can be the anchors in our life and when we lose that, it takes time to find yourself again. I'm so glad you have found something to hold onto. It doesn't sound silly at all. It's an important step.

My current anchor is my boyfriend who threatens to throw me out every time I get a bad headache or have a bad spell. He never means it and always apologizes, but he says it and I always feel my life and center is unsteady. This happened yesterday after being incapacitated by pain for 4 days, I ended up arguing with him with a terrible migraine. He's sick of me being sick. I have nowhere to go and no resources to get there. I feel hopeless and lost and the pain is so bad I can't breathe.