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slopokidog Posts: 251
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My father abused me sexually, physically and verbally. He passed away 7 1/2 years ago. My mother yelled A LOT!! and she also hit, just not as much as him. after my father passed away, my mom was very sad for about 2 years. Then she started being a person I never saw bf. I loved who she was, I started for the first time having a mom. She passed away 18 months ago. anyhow, for whatever reason my past, especially with my dad is creeping in lots lately. I don't know why! I hate this feeling. I see a talk therapist and I said something along the lines of the past will always affect me. Of course she had me reword that. But even if I reword it, it doesn't help, at least not yet. I have triggers along the way. Such as if my husband is doing a project, and its not going his way. He gets mad, not at anyone bit whatever hes working on. I have to leave, but my kids stay rt there hovering him even though he is angry. I am happy they are not afraid, but I feel like a child when I am the one who has to leave bc of triggers. Sorry not sure where I am going with this, but I thought once he was out of my life it would all magically disappear, boy I was wrong! |
