darkb4dawn
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Thank you for your support. It helps so much to be in contact with other people who are going through the same thing. My counselor is nice and works hard to help me, but it is a different understanding from someone who has been through this themselves. I did ok today & I'm trying to forgive myself for yesterday. You're right about the secrets, they do eat you up inside. This disease has a lot to do with secrets. Unlike other diseases/issues, it's fairly easy to hide this from everyone. There aren't many outward signs of this disease. Are there any good books that you have read that have been really helpful? I've read things here and there that are fairly good, but not much that I've been able to say, "This is the key." Who knows? Maybe there isn't any answer to this, but rather a journey where we all need to find our own way. I think that there is a true adiction to this behavior that goes beyond a habit. The compulsion is so strong. I think of people who have addictions to alcohol or drugs. If it's stronger than this, I can't imagine how they can walk away from their adiction. The doctor that I saw (she set me up w/my counselor) wanted to put me on medication to help fight the compulsion. I told her that I wasn't comfortable with that, but now I'm questioning my decision. Here's to new days!!! Stay strong my friend! |
