Bulimia Nervosa Support Group

I realized today that I have gained 8 pounds in the past 6 months. It makes me feel so upset at myself. I keep repeating in my head "how could I let myself go so much". it honestly feels like I am constantly being figety because I just feel so uncomfortable being me. I hate how I look. I just want to wear sweatpants and big shirts so no one can see what I look like. I am 5'8" and 134 pounds. I think I need to be somewhere around 123 lbs. I seriously feel like I'd rather give up than continually beat myself up over weight. I know that being thin doesn't necessarily make someone beautiful but I feel like that's the only way I can be beautiful. sorry about this rant but all day I have just felt like crap. Thanks for listening.

Jazmine, you are beautiful! I can tell just by your profile picture and you're a sweet person too! Everytime I have posted you have always written something positive that makes me feel better. 134 is very thin for 5'8". I know you don't feel thin but that is your eating disorder talking. You know in your heart that you are thin and that you are a good person and that's the most important thing. I wish I could help you feel better because I understand and I feel the same way, but just by being on here you are saying that you know you have an eating problem and you will get better! So I just wanted to give you another person's perspective.

~Allie

Thank you

That really did make me feel a little better. Some days I am ok and some days I am not. I think most of us on here are like that! You're a sweetheart!

Yep I agree with Betterdays, you haven't let yourself go at all! That's the disease talking. Whose your role model? It might help to pick a role model who doesn't believe in the skinny thing. I know that Tyra Banks doesn't believe in the super skinny ideal and she doesn't practice it anymore either and I think she looks so much better with more weight on her.

I make it a trio of agreement! Your are beautiful, you haven't let yourself go, and yup it's the eating disorder talking!!! Hang in there!!

Thanks guys This disease sucks!!!!

You are beautiful Jazmine. We can see that in your photo and your posts. You always have something wonderful and intelligent to say. Hugs sweetie!!!

Hope you are feeling better today!

I feel like I am doing worse and I wish I could get out of this stupid rut!! I need to erase my brain and get a new outlook on body image. if i want to be 600 pounds then so what. who is society to tell me that that isn't beautiful? and why do i even care anyway. haha I am way off topic.

No, you're exactly on topic! You're on the right track when you are thinking that society shouldn't determine your weight. Thoughts like that bring you closer to letting go and having the courage to arrange your life the way YOU want it. I love your spunk.