Bulimia Nervosa Support Group

My mom confronted me about being bulimic and asked me about it, I told her about it, and now I have my first appointment with an ED specialist on May 15th. But the way my mom talks about bulimia is really annoying and makes me mad. She says stuff like, "You need to stop" or "it's all about willpower. even the hospital can't MAKE you stop, it's all in your head." Gee, mom, thanks. Those things she says makes me feel like I'm weak with no willpower and that it's all my fault. I do know that I have work to do too, but I don't know what to do to help myself stop. Binging is the only thing I look forward to in life. I'm always sad, or mad or just upset for no reason I can really think of, and the binging just makes me feel better. If I have a bad day I feel better knowing I have a whole stash of junk food in my drawer. Then I feel bad about eating 3000 calories so the purging makes me feel relieved and sort of like I released everything. I don't have any hobbies or anything. I used to dance but I quit about a year and a half ago because I didn't like it anymore. My mom doesn't understand that what she says isn't helping me at all. Saying that I just need willpower or it's all in my head makes me more upset and want to b/p more.

Then I told her that if I can make it through this and recover, then she has to try and quit smoking. She said, "I'll try, but my addiction to smoking is an actual chemical problem, your problem is in your head." Okay.. :/

I just needed to vent..

Oh wow! Your mother is completely ignorant about what an ED is--as are many (which is largely why I keep it to myself). Going to get help is amazing! It sounds like you might actually have a chemical imbalance called Depression if this is all you are living for. This therapist will be used to dealing with parents such as your mother and she will lead her to proper resources to read up on what an ED is, and how complex it is.

I am sorry that this is all you look forward to right now. That makes me sad. But the bingeing does take you away from that, but I find the purging just makes me hate myself and hate the whole bulimia.

When do you go see the specialist? Don't give up this opportunity because of your mom's lack of understanding.

Oh wow. I had to do deal with a similar episode from my father when I first began my journey to recovery from my bulimia. He was totally ignorant about how to help and understand the disease. It does sound like depression...a major depression that you are dealing with. Getting help and being able to talk to a professional that is non-judgmental will help tremendously I am sure. It did for me when I was dealing with my frustrating father. Best of luck to you in beginning the road to recovery.

maybe you should write down how you feel when you feel sad or feel like binging? it might not stop you feeling or doing it, but one day you could show your mum and maybe she'd see just what all this is doing to you, and its not a case of "its in your head" ? just a suggestion thats all?