Bulimia Nervosa Support Group

today has been a bad day b/p-wise. I binged and purged twice, wasting money food I'm just going to throw back up :/ my mother asked if my therapist had brought up medication again since I'm miserable and making everyone else miserable too. And then when I asked her a bit later on where she was going today she told me "origami in new york and you dont want me around anyway." that comment killed me. I know I come off that way but I actually wanted to see if she wanted to do something today ): instead I binged and purged and cleaned my room, finally and tried on all my clothes because I'm always fearful they suddenly won't fit. Just venting I guess ): I'm so tired of the binging and purging and cutting and being alone..and I know that only one that change my circumstances is me ):

I am sorry to hear that things are so rough for you right now. I know I tend to push people away without really meaning to or wanting to. Maybe tell your mom your real intentions so she can learn to read you a bit better.

Thanks Janna. One of my big problems is not letting my mom in my life..I never let her know whatszreally going on..I know she thinks I'm netter with the bulimia when really I just hide it better

I understand that. My family thinks I am all better too. They see that I don't eat a lot when with them but they don't know that whole story and I have forbidden Steve to say anything to them. My mom just thinks I am dieting for life ...meanwhile she is on a diet too and has been dieting most of her life--though she does not have an ED...just bad genes. Even when I told her the first time..years ago...that I had Bulimia, because I kept it so secretive she still didn't quite get it.

Sorry you had a bad day... I did too I was great in the morning then b/p 3 times throughout the day. What a waste. I also fear day to day that my clothes won't fit.. like magically overnight I'm going to gain 20 pounds! We know in our heads it's impossible, but it feels like the weight is there. I feel so guilty. My husband works hard, is a happy man who wants to spend his 1 day off with me going for a ride and I'm totally faking it. He's smiling and enjoying himself and my depression is just overwhelming. He deserves better, so I pretend... You said your mom mentioned meds? My doc put me on Lexapro. Was supposed to work in a very short time.. Well, for me the only thing I noticed was I don't tremble as much (maybe)with my anxiety, but still get irritated and depressed. I also still b/p so I don't think it's the right med

I was put on lexapro but I don't take it..:/ I took it for a week and all it did was make me tired..my therapist wants me to see a pdoc and go on zoloft...still have mixed feelings about medication

I'm sorry you weren't able to enjoy your day with your husband. Depression can suck the life out of you ): maybe next time tell him you're having a day so you can his support.

Post edited by: Lonelygirl83, at: 09/26/2011 01:49 PM