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jbuck Posts: 54
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So this past year has been a roller coaster with my ED. Being my first year away at college, I hid my ED more, and as the stress piled on, the purging consequentially worsened. My immune system has been weakening substantially, and as a result I got strep throat 5 times during the school year, followed by mono. When I found out I had mono, right before exams were about to begin, I was so overwhelmed and scared. Being so sick, this scared me enough to start getting my act together and take my health seriously and take a giant leap into recovery--I needed my health to finish the semester successfully. I had to keep my food down and eat the right things in order to keep my medicines down and to get myself better. Mono was probably the best thing that happened to me all year. I went almost 2 months b/p free. I felt and looked great. However, beyond my control, my depression started to worsen as I got out of school, leaving my friends and boyfriend and behind and leaving school for good (I am transferring from a little school in CT to Northeastern University!) As many of you know, depression and our EDs go hand-in-hand like best friends, so I had a relapse...and a bad one at that. I hadn't felt so low in so long. I have even been thinking about outpatient treatment, because I have felt so damn powerless against my ED. However there have been a change of events. Two days ago I had my tonsils removed. At first I was terrified because hello...it's surgery on my throat. That's a huge block keeping me from running to my compulsive b/p behaviors. However, it's really been such a good thing. It's such an eye opener when your health is in jeopardy, and you get a wake-up call that you HAVE to treat your body well; you don't have a choice. I've been seeking a lot of comfort and peace beginning to study Buddhism. It's truly amazing, I recommend it to anyone! I'm trying to get enlightened. I'm trying to take baby steps to getting my life back together. xo jbuck xo jbuck
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"What MD Junction means to me is a place where i can feel like im not alone. As someone with something as rare as hydrocephalus, it feels like im the only one in the world with it. When i came to MD, its like everyone has it. It doesnt feel like im alone. And that people need to hold up a sign to say what i have, because people know. And they understand. I can get questions answered from people who have been through it rather than from doctors or people who only can tell you from a physical standpoint. THat is what MD junction means to me." (tomboykimi)
