Borderline Personality Support Group

This is a thread for all members to share what is good in their lives and recovery and what is not so good or even truly sucks. Personally, when things are really really bad I think it is important to name at least one thing that you are grateful for. Even in deep despair we can find things that are good.

Post edited by: petirrojo, at: 07/02/2012 01:29 PM

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Post edited by: petirrojo, at: 07/10/2012 03:53 PM

GOOD: I am now on my 7th day of clarity,clear thinking. (this is so good)

Bad: The attacks I am having are being more aggressive. (another appointment today)

It's my Birthday today, Now that's good... I love my Birthday.... A great reason to be extra happy... See BPD does have advantages....

Happy Birthday Light!

Good: my family loves me and I was able to work 2 hours this morning

Bad: got triggered by about five different things and spent the afternoon crying and the evening debriefing with my parents. (see the good part)

Happy Birthday to you! Happy Birthday to you!

Happy Birthday Dear Light!

Happy Birthday to you!

My Birthday was just last week. I usually keep my Birthdays low key.

I hope you enjoyed your day.

Here is what is going on with me:

Positive: Moving out of the Hotel!

Negative: Still in a financial hardship!

Post edited by: petirrojo, at: 07/02/2012 01:29 PM

Good: I worked for three hours yesterday, called my counsellors office when I thought I needed support, and made it to my apt with my nurse pracitioner who is going to spend the weekend learning as much as she can to help me out.

Bad: Spent 4.5 hours in the ER last night waiting for a dr to change some of my meds and realize I'm depressed on top of ups and downs. (good news, he took me seriously and I think some changes will happen sooner.)

Post edited by: petirrojo, at: 07/02/2012 01:30 PM

I was talking to my dad about writing down progress, so I may be doing a daily addition to this, as it is a good weigh in between the good and "reality" of borderline

Good: met a friend for coffee, planned a great surprise dinner for my parents and some of their friends for their 35 wedding anniversary next weekend, and went out with my whole family to have a week-early father's day dinner 12 of us in total, four grandkids and their great-grandma as well.

Bad, as soon as it was getting later I started feeling anxious and now am afraid I'm going to have another panic attack. Trying to use my little coping skills I'm learning, but it's not going away...

Post edited by: petirrojo, at: 07/02/2012 01:30 PM

petirrojo, I'm sorry you're having such troubles with getting someone to prescribe meds!! That's not helpful. I have huge rejection/abandon issues as well.

Good: I had a really nice sleep last night and a good nap this afternoon, after my busy day yesterday. So far no meltdowns today. Got out of the house for a small walk today all on my own, and braved the anxiety.

Bad: feeling depressed today, had to call the crisis line yesterday and was helped but also hinted that it is for emergencies only, and mine was not an emergency