I've posted here that I was going to tell my suspicions to my pdoc about BPD. I was fearful for many reasons. I had already told him (he's new) that I had what I thought was 'affective instability' and it was difficult to make out the bipolarity issuses from this other instability. He was fine with this. Sooooo. This week I spoke to him about BPD. His response was very positive. Whew. He just kept talking and acting like he always does except maybe a liitle brighter. He's going to set up some (hopefully) well-fitted cbt for me (not much dbt happening here). Overall, he was actually praiseful. And positive. My therapist continues to be helpful. Right now, she is encouraging me to remain focused and yet open and not calcify around BPD as another identity. She understands there are biological reasons for BPD as well as circumstantial, and as a person I am greater than any dx, disability, or mistake. (It's I that am preoccupied with mistakes, not her.) Jeez-Louise everyone, I wish us all the best on this journey. I also thank those that have held my hand the past few days. I am heading into what I call my dysphoric time of day. Evenings are usually difficult for me. Right now I am tired and overwhelmed, and those are all normal feelings and sensations. Thanks 
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