Borderline Personality Support Group

Oh yeah. I wouldn't be alive today if I didn't have my friends and family to pull me out of it.

I distance myself, I guess you can call it avoid in a way but I detach. I don't cry, I get angry yes and I yell sometimes scream but other then happy and angry nope that's it. Like I tell people ask me if I care.....cause I really don't

I feel so much like that I get up in a great mood and then as the day goes on if I'm not completely busy I sit and dwell and then by the time I go to bed I'am completely overwhellmed with my feelings and unable to effectively articulate what I feel to anyone else and generally hurt other people in the painful process of me explaining them..

that sounds just like me JT

Ya know that whole mood thing during the day sounds like me. I get up, tired but ok......ok through out the way......then towards at night I get more and more depressed. I can't sleep and when I do sleep I crash and burn.

I wonder why we are like this? I am so relieved that I am not the only one that does this. My therapist and pdoc act like they have no idea what I am talking about. Maybe this is a bpd thing? What do we do about it?

I read a suggestion in a book that will change your mood. It said to put your face in ice cold water for about 15 seconds. I need to find a place where I can do this. My bathroom sink does not stay plugged.

I also read to hold an ice cube on your wrist and when it starts hurting- to hold it on the other wrist.

Does any of these ideas sound like they may work?

I think that sticking my face in a sink of cold water for a length of time would change make me cranky and irritable. So mood change, yes. Good mood change.. lol. That's just me though.

Sometimes I am so angry that cranky and irritable would be an improvement! LOL

Hahaha then enjoying sticking your face in that awful cold water, I will applaud you for your efforts from afar!

I think the ice cube on the wrist thing works I use that when I'm nauseous it helps ease it not sure why. I'm glad I"m not alone, I feel like my brain doesnt shut off I'm thinking or dreaming my way thru my day if I'm busy I'm focused and even then if I get a call about something I have no control over and I'am immediately distraught. I just recently got divorced and my ex decided to go on a date for the first time and told me about it and then stay out all night with her I was so filled with different emotions I could not function at work or otherwise. I felt horrible about it afterwards but during the manic episode of calling him and messaging him and emailing him it felt normal after I calmed down I felt extremely bad at not understanding I asked for the divorce I want him to be happy I"m not a good person to be with at times .. I've never been happy in my life and so I don't seem to make anyone else happy either. Does anyone else have that issue as well that the emotions you can't seem to control cost you a relationship and being happy with yourself?