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Tinkerbella Posts: 2
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Hi, I'm tink. I'm in my late twenties. I've been struggling with this disorder for about 13 years. I've had multiple plastic surgeries because I believed I was ugly. I have been promising myself, "next year when I'm prettier I will let myself find a boyfriend." But next year comes and goes and I find something else to obsess over, and to use as a reason why I don't deserve to be loved. I isolate in my house on days when it is really bad because I feel like everyone is staring at me. At one point I had my face so blown up from pmma facial fillers that I couldn't go out without someone staring at me. People...mainly women who can be so cruel, have whispered about me thinking I can't hear but I heard every word and it broke my heart. I have been receiving shots in my face to reduce the amount of filler and I'm on the road back to looking more natural, but I still have days where I feel my face is swollen and puffy and I get stares. It hurts. I'm hoping that I haven't permanently disfigured myself. Thanks for this site. I look forward to us helping each other get through this. It's important to have a vision and hope. We can get better.
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