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I want my pdoc to see me at my worst, not my "I'm ok" state. I have an appointment in an hour.

I've been using a website called mood247.com

You can add notes whenever you want and at a time specified by you, you'll get a text asking you to rate your day overall on a scale of 1-10.

I'll be reading the notes I've made to him.

Just wondering if anyone else has experienced this.

Yes, this has happened to me where I feel better the day of my pdoc appt and feel like this doc is not going to know where I am coming from. I don't know why this happens. I don't have an explanation for it myself. But, it has happened to me. It will be interesting to see what others think.

I completely agree usually the day of my appointment I feel like new. Well, it has its advantages if he see me at my worse I wouldn't be here writing.

I think I've seen my pdoc in pretty much all of my mood states actually! I've had some pretty epic entrances looking back... ahhaa!! one I was really depressed and came in the clothes I'd wore to bed, I forgot to brush my hair, no makeup, forgot to wear bras too lol! then, whilst weeping dramatically, I produced an epic statement in writing saying how I was planning to end it all.

And then during hypomania, I bound in wearing my most summery dress, (I usually never wear girly clothes) make conversations with the receptionist and every one else waiting in the office, greet my pdoc with a resounding "Heloooo!!!" And have way too much energy to sit in my chair.

hahaha... I feel sorry for my pdoc at times, but she says she has worse patients so that eases my guilt a little! ha! But I think she has a pretty good picture of my states, although I don't think our doctors ever see us at our actually worse, because we're basically catatonic in bed at those times hey.

I think its good to always be honest with your pdoc, tell them the truth about how your feeling now, but also how you HAVE been feeling, because they need to know.

Hey, you know, at least we are interesting, colourful people

I think I feel too comfortable with my doctors sometimes and they don't see what is going on sometimes. I am usually happy and smiley at my doc. That is my normal demeanor, because I force my self to get up and go out. If I do that I don't think about my illness. I want them to help me figure out how to focus and not be so hyper once I do get up, talking incessantly. Maybe she will see that today.

i think my dr is really good, he has seen me in all states thus he has admitted me to the hospital several times. but what makes him so good, in my opinion, is that i can call him anytime i am having anxiety or not feeling good & he always calls me back & will talk me through calming down or he will let me come see him with no notice. when i was finally correctly diagnosed, my family had brought me to the dr & i was in a full blown episode hallucinating & everything so there wasnt really much hiding to do as far as how i felt. i know i am very lucky to have a good dr & i feel bad for those that are still trying to find a good one for them

It's strange, sometimes I feel better before the appointment w the hopes that it will be a good session. However, after the session I am usually disappointed bc he can't really help me in the long run. I feel like we talk about the same issues over and over. Also, since bipolar is a disease I think medications really treat the symptoms more than therapy. That being said, coming on a site like this and talking to people who have the disease is very helpful. I don't feel so alone and everyone knows what I'm going through. So no, I don't feel much better after the appointments. As a matter of fact, I just decided to cut back significantly on seeing him. Its a lot of money for what I get out of it.

Fortunately, when the parking lot attendants couldn't "find" my car for 30 mins because the frequently park cars off-site, it upset me enough that when I called my doctor in tears, to tell him I was going to be late, he had another opening. It has to be one of the first times I've ever been down enough, in a depressed state, that I was able to fully, not holds barred, tell him where I'm at & what I've been thinking. And although it wasn't an easy visit, I think it was very productive. Thank you all for your input.

You mentioned a site that you used to keep track of your moods. In my case I used an app to record the changes and to take notes. Then I printed a copy and I gave it to him. It was completely un censored I wrote what I felt at the moment both good and bad. It not only help the Pdoc but it also help me identify when thing were going up or down.

Post edited by: jcvdj34, at: 10/27/2011 08:13 PM

Three days ago I had a pdoc appointment and before it hypomania set in. By the time I reached my pdoc's office I was talking at about 100 mph. I literally power walked from the waiting room to the seat in his office. I started telling him how someone told me days before that I was depressed and I showed him a Mayo Clinic depression assessment showing me as mildly depressed. Then I proceeded to tell him all kinds of personal information about my dad, brother and sister's family even though he didn't ask about them. I was gesticulating the whole time. Anyway, he told me I was hypomanic and strangely reduced my Lithium anyway (we had talked about it).

I thought my pdoc suspected I wasn't taking all of my medication because he started to read each medicine and dosage out loud and ask me if that was right. I said yes to all even though I lied about Geodon. Things started getting worse from that point on and the next day after dancing for an hour in my living room I decided to come clean. I left a message for hi

I'm going to stop here. I'm getting out of control. I could go on for 6 paragraphs and I don't think this is what you want to hear. Anyway, I saw him again the day after and he prescribed Navane. I think I'll eventually go off of Geodon. Seroquel as a prn really helps too.

Post edited by: Cthebird, at: 10/28/2011 09:20 AM