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so my last few posts were about me and my partner trying to conceive...

here's the update in the shit avalanche that is my life, she cheated on me with her ex, and left me at her dads to do it no less. decided to wait till we went on holidays for the weekend before say "I love my ex more then you" to pick a fight with me and hurt me, then f****d off leaving me in a town 800 Kilometers away and f***ing off with all our money and the car, for the last 2 weeks I have lived out of a suitcase that has a total of 9 items of clothing, including underwear for 3 days. 4 days spent in a bus shelter. 3 in a football stadium with no roof... it rained all 3 days... and I had $15 in my wallet for the week to feed myself... the last week I have been staying with 3 guys who rocked up at the football oval to kick a ball around and saw me looking miserable and asked what was going on. I told them, they took me in, 2 of them are divorced from women who did similar things to them.

I am so f****d off with everything and just a little depressed and manic at the same time, I dont f***ing care though. I dont want to be on meds during this, cause at least if I do something stupid I will feel great about it at the time.

I'm on their internet, why is it the people who are the salt of the earth (these guys) get stomped all over by whores like that (my ex)...?

I'm so f***ing over everything.

and all I can do is sit here and cry. I dont even know what I'm meant to do next...

Post edited by: Chainer, at: 04/23/2011 06:56 PM

Man Chainer, this is awful. I can't believe she would do this to you. How are you going to get home? I'm really sorry it turned out like this. She doesn't deserve you at all. Leaving you there is unacceptable in my opinion. She has no heart. Those guys are very nice to have taken you in. God took care of you by sending them your way. I don't know why people do the things they do, but we can't change that. They will get what is coming to them in the long run. Next you go home and decide what you want to do from there. You need to return home and do some thinking. My heart goes out to you for all you have suffered through this. I can only imagine. I think you should stay on medications though. They will help you through this. Don't give up and do something stupid. My thoughts and prayers are with you. We are here for you and we care very much.

That is just awful. I am so sorry this happened to you. I agree with Joy that I would stay on my meds for this. You don't need to do something stupid and have another avalanche to deal with. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

I'm so sorry to hear of this Chainer.

If you were to ask me for advice I'd say exactly what Joy and Lisa have said. Stay on your meds to prevent the possibility of another hurtful event. Find your way home and keep after your education (your id page mentions schooling right?). I tell you these things from experience. It is never too late to 'start over' and take your life onto a new path. Heck, I'm 44 and was shocked out of my skull to find myself single again over the Holidays. I left my career, moved half a day away to be with my retired parents, got a stress-free job and I'm going back to college this summer. I am making a 'right turn' with my life leaving the stress of an old career and what I thought was a great marriage behind... You are so young my friend; you can do anything... Anything. Just hang in there for us and keep going.

If you ever need to vent pm any one of us... Take care.

Eric

I'm so sorry all this has happened this is absolutely horrible, this is so totally out of the ordinary, you will get past this i know you will. I reiterate what all the other posters have said, hang in there, we are here for you too keep posting let it all out all your frusterations, please say on your medications you don't want to get real sick you know better than to stop, so stay on them do this for at least me.

I would go home guys... but I dont have a home to go to, we were living together, I am currently "without residence" as I have been told by the local organizations... and cause I'm not a local, they wont help.

I would go to the hospital and get the meds straight and get some counseling. Maybe they have some leads about halfway houses or low income housing.

Chainer I am so sorry that someone would treat you in this way. I know how hard it must be for you through my own personal experience. The thing that you need to keep reminding yourself of is that this isn't your fault and you deserve so much better. Please stay on your meds, I would hate to think of any more badness happening to you. We are all here for you to help you through this. Just remember that although things are bad just now, there are really good people out there, look at the guys that have taken you in, and there's another good reason to stay on your meds, they have given you help and hope in a dark time and I can guarantee that, like us, they would hate to see anything else bad happening to you. You are in my thoughts and prayers. If you want to PM me either to chat or vent, I am here for you, along with everyone else on here.