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I started today out great - worked, made dinner, watched some Comedy Central. Then I found out from mutual friends who we met over the internet 2 years ago but haven't "met" in person that he is telling everyone we "know" that I weigh 400 lbs (I don't even weigh close to 250!), that I have dentures (true, I lost my teeth in an accident when I was young but it's embarrassing to me which is why I guess he's telling them) along with some other stuff.

I was first embarrassed, then hurt, then angry. I got so angry I told them about an STD he gave me last summer. I didn't mean to, I had never planned on divulging that to anyone, but I was so mad I hit back with the only weapon I had, and that was it. Now I feel like crap and am getting depressed. I know this is probably a situational type depression; we DO have valid, legitimate feelings from happiness to anger to sadness, so I don't think it's from the bipolar. It's a combination of "I can't believe he's doing this" and my own shame at divulging such personal information. I am better than that, I don't know why I couldn't stop it, it just flew out of my mouth.

They say confession is good for the soul, so that is why I am confessing. I am not an evil person, but it hurt me so much. And I can't take it back which is why I feel like crap, in addition to the fact of what he is doing.

Greg's goal was to victimize you by revealing unpleasant things about you. In a sense he accomplished his goal because you were embarrassed enough to be moved to retaliate to reveal something to embarrass him. Now, don't re-victimize yourself again by feeling excessively bad about what you did. You did what you did and you are sorry for it and it is over. Let it go. Forgive yourself for being human. He poked you with a big stick (so to speak), and you poked back. It's over. Let yourself move on.

{{{{HUGS}}}}

OK one last dig, I absolutely cannot help myself LOL!!!! He poked me with a "very little stick" if you know what I mean ROFLMBO