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09/14/2010 03:44 PM
tekmanmike

A poem I wrote:

Can any of you relate? I'll bet you can...

Manic Depression

Category: Writing and Poetry

"Manic Depression"

Raging thoughts and visions, Swirl throughout my brain,

Whispers of death do comfort me, and promise me no more pain,

If life is but a library, and I an open book,

How O how will I find me, hidden within that nook?

Madness dwells within me, a river raging swell,

How to be delivered, from my own prison cell?

The darkness it does beckon me, it knows my secret shames.

Mockingly it laughs at me, and Knows I'm not the same.

Powerless to stop it, life is but a lie.

But still I struggle onward, living but to die.

The insanity it beckons, within these hardened halls.

The gates of hell are open, reminding me I'm so small.

A lighthouse it doth beckon, upon the stormy sea.

Promising deliverance, but it seems so far from me.

Adrift upon the darkness, like rotten wood upon the tide.

I think I'll keep on swimming, and try to survive the ride.

Mike Kirchner, April 18, 2009

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09/15/2010 03:04 PM  Top
hunkydorie
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Hi, I can relate. What a great poem!
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artbp2
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wow...i'm really feeling the in the waves part tonight. I've fallen into a very paranoid mood tonight. Times like these i feel like such a loser. Your poem reminded me its my illness and i need to not listen to these feeling. Thank you for posting it. You write very well by the way.
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09/16/2010 12:18 AM  Top
tekmanmike

Thanks all of you I'm glad you enjoyed it. I wrote it on my front lawn-I couldn't stand to be inside after being locked up at the va hospital!

09/16/2010 08:23 PM  Top
pixisprkl
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That is beautiful.

I love poetry... and it is very relate-able for me.

And I too will keep on swimming. Smile

Thank you for sharing. It is wonderful to know that I am not alone with this illness... though I wish nobody had to suffer from it.

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09/16/2010 08:31 PM  Top
tekmanmike

Your welcome Smile

09/16/2010 09:17 PM  Top
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That was beautiful and very well written. At times from living with bp for 28 yrs, I cculd relate to some of what you've written. You are very talented, thanks for sharing with us.
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