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I want to know...does everyone feel like the following sometimes:

Number one, feeling like nobody understands.

Number two, I feeling like a burden on people, so therefore you push them away.

Number three, feeling like everyone is against you, and that they are out to hurt you...

I will give examples for all of the above, and maybe you will be able to relate.

With my illness, when I feel like I just want to curl up into a ball and take a break, I feel like nobody understands my need for space, my need to just be alone...my need to go out on FMLA from work. Everyone just wants me to suck it up and go to work. Sometimes I can't. Sometimes my breaking point is lower than others.

Number two, I feel like a burden because of my illness, because I know I'll never be well and that I'll never get better. I push everyone, including my long-time boyfriend away due to this. I don't want to bring anyone down, and I constantly think of how everyone could do better than me.

Number three...I feel like everyone is against me and out to hurt me. Not physically, but mentally. I become so sensitive sometimes. Its hard to cope with things. Sometimes I don't understand how people feel, and I always think they are going to leave me all the time. This is where I feel like everyone is out to hurt me emotionally.

I don't know if this makes sense. I haven't felt like this in awhile due to my medication, but I just wanted to know if everyone felt the same I way I used to sometimes.

Thanks for listening!!!

I feel like nobody understands when I'm in an episode but I know the people who realy don't understand and that's what bothers me.the ones closest to me my husband mother older children. If they could just educate themselves things would go a little smother on there side .Then that's where I feel a burden, if I didn't have bpd they wouldn't have to concern thselves with it. I've also pushed my friends away don't want to bother them with my bpd. Anyways I've been told to suck it up as you have.

But I know in my heartest of hearts I will get better and these things I feel will be a part of the past. My bpd will always be there and so will those people that don't understand will be too. I just have to decide how much of an impact I will allow them to have in my life. This is what I experience now.

A lot of the times I feel like no one understands me just because they don't have bipolar and I do. They don't understand why I feel a certain way about things and why things get to me the way they do.

I don't push people away, but at times I do feel like a burden to people. I tend to stick to myself so I don't burden them.

I don't feel they are out to hurt me except for cruel people and my boyfriend some of the time.

Hang in there. I too am currently isolating myself and I know how hard it is. You are not alone. This website has really helped me. U guys are my social group.

I know what u are feeling, but they tell me that as BP people, we have intensely heightened senses of hearing, seeing, smelling, etc. And are extra sensitive in all these ways as well as battling our illnesses. A lot of the people in our lives just don't think and feel the way we do and therefore they don't mean to make us feel less than, they just have no clue as to what we live with. I say this in the middle of a huge crash and have successfully shut down or isolated everyone and everygthing in my life. Tonight is somewhat better though....maybe Seroquel XR I took at 7:15?

I also sometimes feel #1 (and agree understanding is important) and #2 (but I don't really think about the never being well part and seem to maintain some optimism about myself, somehow) I can't really recall feeling #3 at all and that sounds sorta strange to me. This could be like my pdoc mentioning I am a little stubborn-I also don't feel I spend too much time thinking about how other poeple feel, if I do I feel like all I can do is think myself in their shoes and imagine what I would be feeling and then consider that this is also only based off of what parts I witness, know or they have told me. I am sensitive and do get emotionally hurt and have shared tears with others. But this is how I interpret the stubborn comment- for some reason I feel like it is important for me to not be putting myself in others' shoes all the time because if/when I start doing this, maybe too much, I could loose myself and fear I'd become too wrapped up with their emotion in my mind. Therefore I feel the problem for me actually sort of seems to really become people raging or acting out (sometimes in hurtful ways like they are against me) in order to achieve emotional connection. I feel like there is more to be said or thought about here. I do have a hard time trying to balance-meaning my own feelings and opening up to the feelings of others. It's like they say 'if you carry your heart on your sleeve you are bound to get hurt'. This area of thought seems closely related to core bipolar illness for me, like people wearing masks and how your brain connects to both your expressions and your emotions and your body/organs and also being fake and being natural or true. If you can follow this last sentence at all(sorry for tangents!) it sometimes feels like being bipolar I've had to work extra hard my whole life to bring these things together whereas they just all seem to seomhow just work for 'normal' people. With your perspective do (or did, and if it is did what has changed for your feelings?) you feel like you really get emotionally hurt all the time or too much or have this fear often, I wonder? I'm bipolar 1 and haven't been doing well lately with controlling my illness and relationships. Thank you for listening and also for bringing this up, I feel like it would be beneficial/important for me to spend more time contemplating this more thoroughly but feel like I've already written way too much!!

When we feel like we want to curl up like a ball and hide, i still get like that and i've had bp for 28 yrs. I call these my low times, they don't last too long my meds keep in from lasting. I go often still go thru those guilt feelings but i try hard to recognize them when they are happening and stop these negative thoughts, i let my loved ones know, my husband and sometimes my children, how i'm feeling i tell them i'm not well, and everyone leaves me alone. When you get the impression that those around you want you to suck it up, again keep the communicatons open. I've gotten therapy for those reasons you've posted, you may want to too.