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Xina Posts: 377
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Hi, I'm back after not posting for about a year. I am still struggling & know this site was helpful. So I'm giving it another try. I'm 2 days sober & taking it one day at a time. I've made progress over the year, but still haven't been able to stop. The past year flew by & I'm ready for a positive change! If anyone wants to chat please PM me  "Don't waste your time thinking about what might have been. The past is gone and can't be changed. Make the future what you want it to be." "We are not Human Beings having a Spiritual Experience...we are Spiritual Beings having a Human Experience"
The past is unchangeable so it is futile to reflect on it unless you are making sure you do not repeat past mistakes. The future is but a result of your actions today. So learn from the past to do better in the present so that you can succeed in the future.
Diagnosis:
Bipolar I
GAD (Generalized Anxiety Disorder)
Medications: (Started March 17, 2009)
Trileptal 300 mg / PM
Geodon 20 mg / PM
Ativan 1 mg
Wellbutrin XL 300 mg (stopped on my own - not by pdoc - October 21, 2010)
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sarahtroy Posts: 12179
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Hi Xina, Welcome Back! You are always welcome here. Happy 2nd Day of Sobriety! Are you ready to try a program like AA at this point? Bipolar II, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, Panic Attacks, Agoraphobia & PTSD; Alcoholic in recovery since 3/21/07.
Aplenzin 522mg; Pristiq 200mg; Lamictal 400mg; Geodon 160mg; Ativan 1mg TID; Deplin 15mg; Xanax PRN; Metoprol 100mg.
• "Don't give up 5 minutes before the miracle happens."
• "My little dog - a heartbeat at my feet." ~Edith Wharton
• "Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle." ~Ian MacLaren (Usually mis-attributed to Plato)
• "And the day came when the risk it took to remain tight inside the bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom." ~Anais Nin
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Xina Posts: 377
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Hi Sarah. Thank you! I thought about it. I looked into it & the closest meeting in my area is about 15 minutes driving distance & I still don't drive. That's why I started back here. My situation is still the same as I still have no medical insurance, but did see a counseling place in my town, but I'm sure it's expensive & I don't have the money right now. Right now I'm focusing on eating healthy, drinking a lot of water, taking a few vitamins & I got exercise the past 2 days, but that's a good start for me. At this point I know I need to make some changes to accomplish the positive things I want for my future. "We are not Human Beings having a Spiritual Experience...we are Spiritual Beings having a Human Experience"
The past is unchangeable so it is futile to reflect on it unless you are making sure you do not repeat past mistakes. The future is but a result of your actions today. So learn from the past to do better in the present so that you can succeed in the future.
Diagnosis:
Bipolar I
GAD (Generalized Anxiety Disorder)
Medications: (Started March 17, 2009)
Trileptal 300 mg / PM
Geodon 20 mg / PM
Ativan 1 mg
Wellbutrin XL 300 mg (stopped on my own - not by pdoc - October 21, 2010) |
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Bangbang Posts: 6074
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Call your AA Hot Line and they may be able to get you rides to the meetings. You are not drunk unless you have to hang on while lying on the floor. |
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Colleenj Posts: 2104
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Welcome back! If you can't find or get to a meeting in your area, there is AA online. Colleen Colleen
"In our daily lives, we must see that it is not happiness that makes us grateful, but the gratefulness that makes us happy." ~Albert Clarke
(*Quote snagged from jenny1978)
PTSD
Anxiety Attacks
Bipolar II
Depression
ADD/ADHD
Chronic pain
Alcoholic
Please note that anything that I post is strictly my own experience or understanding of a particular subject. I am not a doctor and my posts reflect my thoughts or feelings of the subject, whatever that may be. Please always talk with your doctor. |
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Xina Posts: 377
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Post edited by: Xina, at: 03/23/2012 08:00 AM
"We are not Human Beings having a Spiritual Experience...we are Spiritual Beings having a Human Experience"
The past is unchangeable so it is futile to reflect on it unless you are making sure you do not repeat past mistakes. The future is but a result of your actions today. So learn from the past to do better in the present so that you can succeed in the future.
Diagnosis:
Bipolar I
GAD (Generalized Anxiety Disorder)
Medications: (Started March 17, 2009)
Trileptal 300 mg / PM
Geodon 20 mg / PM
Ativan 1 mg
Wellbutrin XL 300 mg (stopped on my own - not by pdoc - October 21, 2010) |
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Xina Posts: 377
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Have you ever used the AA online? I believe I tried it back in 2006 & never felt welcome because of conflicting spiritual beliefs I have. Thanks for your advice all of you. Today is day #3 & feeling so much better than the beginning of the week. I started reading a great self help book yesterday that someone got me last Fall. It's called "You Can Heal Your Life" by Louise L. Hay. I guess with me I have always tried doing things my self & was never comfortable talking to groups of people about my problems. I'm going to keep searching...posting here & looking in to other options, as I don't have anyone close to talk to where I live. No support from family & no friends in my area. The few friends I did have (that I met last summer) were all drinkers. Need to find a new crowd & move forward. I will continue to stay strong today & check back here. Thank you again to all that replied. Post edited by: Xina, at: 03/23/2012 08:03 AM "We are not Human Beings having a Spiritual Experience...we are Spiritual Beings having a Human Experience"
The past is unchangeable so it is futile to reflect on it unless you are making sure you do not repeat past mistakes. The future is but a result of your actions today. So learn from the past to do better in the present so that you can succeed in the future.
Diagnosis:
Bipolar I
GAD (Generalized Anxiety Disorder)
Medications: (Started March 17, 2009)
Trileptal 300 mg / PM
Geodon 20 mg / PM
Ativan 1 mg
Wellbutrin XL 300 mg (stopped on my own - not by pdoc - October 21, 2010) |
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Xina Posts: 377
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P.S. I don't know why that posted twice, but I just erased the first one, because I added more to the second. I think it was because my computer froze up while I was trying to post & when I refreshed the page it posted twice. "Don't waste your time thinking about what might have been. The past is gone and can't be changed. Make the future what you want it to be." This is an affirmation I need to keep reading this & believing it!! Post edited by: Xina, at: 03/23/2012 08:02 AM Post edited by: Xina, at: 03/23/2012 08:06 AM "We are not Human Beings having a Spiritual Experience...we are Spiritual Beings having a Human Experience"
The past is unchangeable so it is futile to reflect on it unless you are making sure you do not repeat past mistakes. The future is but a result of your actions today. So learn from the past to do better in the present so that you can succeed in the future.
Diagnosis:
Bipolar I
GAD (Generalized Anxiety Disorder)
Medications: (Started March 17, 2009)
Trileptal 300 mg / PM
Geodon 20 mg / PM
Ativan 1 mg
Wellbutrin XL 300 mg (stopped on my own - not by pdoc - October 21, 2010) |
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Colleenj Posts: 2104
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Xina, Contrary to popular belief, the AA "Big Book" was written so that everybody had an opportunity to learn how to quit drinking and nowhere in the program of AA, which is the first 164 pages, does it say you have to attend meetings to get sober. Meetings are the fellowship (which is important) but not the end all and be all of the 12 Steps that so many would have you believe. Having a copy of the Big Book is a great addition to any self-help library. I have belonged to online groups in the past and some are better than others. Unfortunately, there will always be judgmental people in AA, just as there is elsewhere. Louise Hay has been around for a long time and has written some great stuff. Good luck and keep posting; you know you are among friends here. Colleen  Colleen
"In our daily lives, we must see that it is not happiness that makes us grateful, but the gratefulness that makes us happy." ~Albert Clarke
(*Quote snagged from jenny1978)
PTSD
Anxiety Attacks
Bipolar II
Depression
ADD/ADHD
Chronic pain
Alcoholic
Please note that anything that I post is strictly my own experience or understanding of a particular subject. I am not a doctor and my posts reflect my thoughts or feelings of the subject, whatever that may be. Please always talk with your doctor. |
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Xina Posts: 377
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Thank you Colleen!! I know there are judgmental people online, that's why I was away from MDJunction for a year, but thought I'd give it another try as I know there are so many going through the same things as I am. So hoping to meet some new friends to talk to. Xina "We are not Human Beings having a Spiritual Experience...we are Spiritual Beings having a Human Experience"
The past is unchangeable so it is futile to reflect on it unless you are making sure you do not repeat past mistakes. The future is but a result of your actions today. So learn from the past to do better in the present so that you can succeed in the future.
Diagnosis:
Bipolar I
GAD (Generalized Anxiety Disorder)
Medications: (Started March 17, 2009)
Trileptal 300 mg / PM
Geodon 20 mg / PM
Ativan 1 mg
Wellbutrin XL 300 mg (stopped on my own - not by pdoc - October 21, 2010) |
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