Bipolars dealing with Alcoholism Group

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I am weak I gave in and started drinking after my boyfriend laid down for a nap and I was the only one up in the den/kitchen.

Post edited by: NicoleLynn, at: 04/10/2011 04:26 PM

When I quit drinking I could not keep alcohol in the house. And I could not make it past noon without opening a beer because of my cravings, so I had to find a fellowship that had a 12:00 noon meeting every day. Believe it or not, I found one.

Hang in there, Nicole!

Post edited by: sarahtroy, at: 04/10/2011 06:24 PM

Cravings can come out of the blue and hit us when we least exspect it. I have a little over 60 days and it was a craving for not only the drink but the drinking environmnet that sucked me in last time. I am missing a social life and I needed compnay and the "bar" seemed like the best place at that moment to go for socializing and I SURE did learn a lesson-the bar is NOT the place to go!!!!!!! I should have gone to a meeting but I just clammed up and did not share with anyone including my sponsor exactly what I was feeling and going through. Remember the anogram HUngry, ANgry, Lonely and Tired and know that when you are feeling anyone of these cravings can kick your ass if you don't open and talk about your feelings. You are asking for help and that is a strenghth-don't negate your strength in asking. I do not keep booze in theh ouse nor do I allow ANYONE in my home that is drinking or has been drinking. I went as far as going to the bar I was at and asked them to NOT serve me if I come back in-it was humilating but it was less than if I drank and blacked out or "acted up". We as bipolars also have to be in touch with our symptoms on a daily basis cause they can disrupt our sobriety with cravings. Daily inventories done sometimes a few times a day is necessary. It pisses me off that I always have to be in touch with my feelings and my moods but they are SO important indicators of where I stand in my daily sobriety. Today I am sober and I don't want to drink. Try and make a list of triggers like money, lonliness of what brings on your cravings. MIne is money and lonliness and I miss the bar environment-the excitation and the social contact with others. You can always PM me and although my computer is down I have access to computers at my rehab on a M-fri schedule. Much Love, Carol