Bipolar Type II Support Group

Thanks for the support all Hugs and love to you all..sorry if that was corny The investigator was goodtimes! I loved how he really honed in on my somewhat checkered work history. I have some holes due to trying to switch my career, which I have and boy it was hard!

I just hope this dipshit doesn't threaten my job security. It's like I had an extra eye. I guess that's b/c he's immersed in gov't cheese, he doesn't understand why anyone would have gaps in their employment history. Such f@$kin b@%llshit!

Pretty damn oldschool if you ask me! People switch jobs more often than in the past. Get with the times man! I so wish I could tell him that!

Thanks Stacey for the compliment. Sometimes I feel like I'm such a dumb dumb. But unlike tootsie pop, I am not afraid to ask questions even if they seem dumb. She always has to save face.

Tootsie pop is a walking production. Nothing is spontaneous, everything is rehearsed. I could go on and on about her...I just try to stay away as much as possible.

Oops! I meant to answer your question Stacey, can you tell I'm tired? LOL! My next pdoc appt is 3/31. I'm afraid to tell her b/c she might think I'm symptomatic b/c I'm also taking ADD medication. I don't think it's that medication, I think I'm just stressed out.

You could never be corny and you are definately no dumb dumb, I know that from the many positive and informative things I have seen you post here and also from talking to you as a friend. I am glad the investigator thing is over with, I hope it turns out well or is it all done now? I think you should tell your pdoc how you are feeling but just tell her you believe its due to increased stress and you want to give it some time without the stress related issues to see if the symptoms also go away before adjusting your meds, if they dont you will do it the next month. Wouldnt that appease her? I had that issue when I was having symptoms from lack of sleep so I told her if I got sleep and still was suffering I would let her adjust my meds but they went away so I was good. Or if she is just not that cooperative then do the study yourself but make sure to tell her by the next visit if you still arent feeling "right". I promise I am not preaching I just care about you and want you to feel better. Love ya Chicky! Stacey

Awe, thanks Stacey, you're too kind! As for the investigator deal, the process is not over unfortunately. He'll call me if he needs clarification on whatever, but a few friends will be called, old employers, a neighbor, etc. It could take 3-6 months (just an estimate) and I believe I will find out maybe a year later whether or not I'm cleared...sarcastic exaggeration. I take it seriously and am afraid my employment history may be used against me. I think it's bullhonkey that I even have to go through this. I don't deal with highly sensitive info, my job title is changing soon (in June to my understanding) so I will be out of the world I'm in now (I'm two part times if that makes sense), and I'm in no way a threat to anyone. When I'm doing very poorly, I'm a threat to myself. I don't ever want to cause harm to any living being when not doing well.

And what makes me paranoid, is I think I forgot to note part of my work history. If I remembered right, it wasn't at all intentional. See what I mean, this shit makes you fraggin paranoid! It's like: did I mention this? I think I mentioned that, etc. I don't want to be labled as a liar. He read some "riot act." Oh well...I just really hope I don't lose my job over this. I don't like being misunderstood, I'm frankly tired of it.

Thanks for the support. Love ya 2 chica

Post edited by: SpazyJess, at: 03/24/2010 05:17 PM

It will be good when its all over with and you wont have the stress of that over you. That stress could be triggering the Bipolar and also inducing the flare with your Fibro, I am not suprised you have been in so much pain. I have never been one for change myself. I hope things work out ok. Definately keep me posted. Love and Gigantic Hugs, Stacey

I'll keep you posted Stacey, thanks for caring. I hope you are doing ok.

Post edited by: SpazyJess, at: 03/27/2010 11:25 AM

Definately keep me posted!!! I care about you. Love ya, Stacey