santos63
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I am so frustrated. I am capable of doing so much, but can do so little! I'm getting over my last episode. I can go to my husband's ofc, and do things there for him to get me out of the house and make minimum wage. I know this sounds so ungrateful, but, minimum wage!?!? I'm used to making more than 4x that amount! I am ready to make my normal wage now. I feel better already, but can't go back to work yet. I have to be very careful that my coworkers don't know I have BP because I'm a RN. Healthcare workers treat mental health patient's that they work with like they have the plague, and your competency as a healthcare provider is questioned with everything you do. The longest job I have ever had is 2 years, but average 4-5 months. I get paranoid that someone is going to find out I have BP. I have never gotten a bad performance eval, they are always glowing. But, I have a horrible fear of someone finding out, and me losing my license. Honestly, I may be capable of doing the job, but the stress/pressure of the politics is great, and really is not conducive to my mental health. I really need to find a different line of work. I'm a college grad, but it won't do me any good in another area of interest. Most areas would not allow me to ever get to the salary range that I am used to. Can anyone offer any suggestions?  santos63 |
