Bipolar Type II Support Group

hyunjee,

I understand. The rubber band technique doesn't help me when I'm feeling severely depressed -- nothing does.

Besides, I like to self harm when I'm depressed because it gives me a sense of control. I also feel like I deserve to hurt myself because of how depressed I am not to mention the abuse I experienced from age 7-18.

hyunjee, I agree it is so hard to accept. I was diagnosed 1 1/2 years ago & still have a hard time understanding it or accepting it. I went off all my meds, just like a previous person said here. I was in denial.It was the most awful thing I did. I'm back on a mood stabilizer & doing better, but?I guess with time, hopefully will get better. I am trying now, to not get hung up on the diagnosis, working on accepting this. As, I have a mood disorder, it is not my fault, it cannot be helped (as in I didn't do this to myself). It can be helped with medication. And, I have came to the conclusion - If meds are what I need, I NEED to take them to feel better?Taking the med is much better than the way I feel without the med. So, I just pop the pill.

I'm sure I was of NO help. But, I just wanted to say I completely understand where you are coming from. It makes me pissed and angry to, WHY does a person have to feel this way, WHY does a person have to deal with things like this?WHY??????????It's not fair!

I am really truely sorry you are having such a rough time right now. I hope things get better for you!I'm just holding on for summer to get here. It's when I'm at my best. I think I get lots of Vitamin D from the sunlight & I dont feel so damn depressed.

Amber

hyunjee--you seem to be a strong willed person. you cannot let this disorder get the best of you! don't be a victim. you are doing the right things! it is hard to accept this is a life long issue, but with proper treatment and therapy, life will be good. i have no advice as far as cutting. i haven't figured out what to do about that myself.

i feel you hyunjee, i feel the same f#%#$# way im pissed, im mad, im sad, why me? i have known for 2yrs and it got a little easier to accept , but not completely , i don't take meds , i hate medication, i think its all experimental and im scared sh%^less. i don't know what to do either, but i do know that talking to other people who understand makes me feel a little better. Keep coming back, I'll meet u here