Bipolar Type II Support Group

Has anyone ever had short episodes (generally lasting 2-3 hours) whereby they become increasingly agitated, cry uncontrollably, and really focused on harming self and deserving punishment? It is such a dark experience and it is impossible to see how irrational your thoughts are. I have often hurt myself and rocked myself back to calmness during these episodes. They are really awful and it is like they were a dream when you come out of them. Does anyone else get like this and would the excessive guilt and focus on deserved punishment mean it is a psychotic depressive episode with mood congruent features?

I'm not sure, but I've been overly anxious and obsessive like that before.

I've never experienced this, but I'm sure you aren't the only one. I'm sorry that you experience this feeling. How awful. I would be sure to tell your psychiatrist of this extreme episode that you have. He can help and might know what it is. I hope you get this figured out soon. I hate to see you suffer.

When i am not stable I have those periods every night but I am able to refrain from self-harm by telling myself it is a cycle and it will pass--thought the impulse is very very strong. They are terrible, the only good thing is that i know I will feel better the next morning. But when I am not stable I get that every night.

I suppose I should mention I used to self harm extremely bad. I haven't really badly in about a year but the urge is very strong. It makes me feel out of control. I usually have to medicate and do something to distract myself from the thought of it. If you ever want to talk about it feel free to pm me.

i sure do have these episodes matter of fact that is why i am on here right now. the way i keep from self harm is to tell myself of the people i know that have cancer and are fighting for thier lives in every way to be able to live yet another day and here i am being this way thinking on ending mine. i also want to harm others and the way i get thru that is i do not want to go jail and lose what freedom i do have. i have watched those shows women in prsion and i know i do no want that kind of life. i know what kind of life i want to live with peace and quiet and be doing good better life. i really want that. but my psychiatrist says it is a commom thing. i hear music that is not there, hear people talking n the walls things like that. he has given me no meds says the dr who prescibes is way behind in his patients. does that sound common to any of you. i may have mental problems but i am able to know he may not beleive me even tho i have been hospitalized twice suicidal. should i find my a nother psychiatrist. please help me i dont have anywhere else to go to where people might understand what i am going thru. i dont want to sit and cry go into this darkness seeing and hearing things, feeleing like i am worth nothing and everything that happens here at the house i smy fault. i get complained on my husband for not doing what he said or not doing the correct way or something is not right every day. yes i have lost interest in my home and everything else.i look at myself in the mirror and see i do not take care of myslef. is major depression with psychosis bi polar type 2 seen that at the top of thepage.